I think I am ready for a new lover,---Maybe who knows??? Does anyone use the term lover anymore? I am not speaking of a per you merely fuck or have sex with. I am not speaking of a marital or exclusive partner. A lover is so much more then that. A lover is someone you do exactly that with...love. Yes, you can love someone who is not your wife or husband or family. Love them so completely and honestly that you'll start to laugh in the middle of the day thinking of the way they look at you. You care for them deeply, and they for you. You want to give them anything they may desire, and they want to give to you. You never take more than you deserve, and neither do they. You talk only of that which you want to talk of and nothing more. You do only things which bring you pleasure either in or out of the public eye, and nothing more. I met my lover through a Friends-with-Benefits group for the sole purpose of sex. But when we kissed that first time, it was electric. Who I was expecting a good snog with and nothing more. Instead I found passion and longing and connection, and love. Yes, love. But together we had everything and nothing and only what we needed...each other. The first time I said I loved him, it slipped out quite unintentional in bed. We went out to dinner and concerts, stayed in wonderful suites, and enjoyed each other completely. He taught me things about my body I had never known, and by extension, taught me things about my self-confidence too. But it had to end, and it was terribly painful. We had long ago made plans to go to the mountains for a long weekend of sleep and love and walking and calm-a step out of our daily lives. Did I do wrong? I left a man who wanted to devote his whole life to me . Or so he thought. What he really wanted was to devote his whole life to the fantasy that we had together-alone. So I'll be holding auditions for a new lover. It doesn't matter if they are married, single, or any other separators. What matters is that you can love. You can spend hours in a bed on a rainy day with only one per enjoying each part of them from sleep to wake. You can comfortably know that you are not the only per having sex with your lover, but you know the look in her eyes is only for you. You can hold no jealousy when real life interrupts fantasy. You can share your feelings and desires, and accept another's feeling and desires. If you can make me feel loved without making me feel tied down, you and I may be perfect for each other... ...for now.