I Believe You  

yagottalikit 50F
824 posts
12/16/2005 5:09 am

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I Believe You

I believe you. Though, I admit, I'm afraid to.

Believing is surrendering.
Believing leaves you unguarded,
vulnerable to injury.
Believing leaves scars.
Believing, also, disregards
existing scars.

Scars can be more painful
than the wounds they once were.

Revealing scars requires trust.
Trust requires belief.
Belief is what created them to begin with.

Standing before the mirror,
I examine my scars.
Each one's length, it's depth, how old it is.
It's origin.

A few are still fresh, some were re-opened,
only to close, again.
Once more, becoming a scar, many have
considerably faded. Almost undetectable.
Invisible.

I notice how much of me appears to be
scar-free. It's puzzling.
I've been hurt much more
than my reflection reveals.

I begin to realize that many of my wounds
were superficial, not significant enough
to become a scar.

They simply healed and vanished, as if they never existed.
Never bled. Never stung.
Never ached.

I can't recall how many wounds there have been.

Seems there should be more scars.
More proof.
More reminders.

Without them ~
I believe you..........

© copyright 2005 by Yagottalikit


Yagotta get it soft and wet so we can kick/stick it


bardicman 51M

12/16/2005 12:52 pm

Scars are like walls.. We use them to protect our self from more harm. We also are able to hide them from ourselves so we can deny they exist.
Scars protect us hurt.. They also protect us from being loved and loving someone new.. hmmm...



I am not dead yet


stickman88001

12/16/2005 11:34 pm

If there was no such thing as pain we would not enjoy the time without it. I think scars are a reminder of that. No matter if they are physical or emotional.


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
53M
2642 posts
12/16/2005 11:57 pm

It is beautiful to watch you squirm a little while you open up... .


cozy1957 60M

12/17/2005 12:54 am

Thoghtful.
Beautiful.
Healing.


2xTwiceShy 52M
470 posts
12/17/2005 4:40 am

I lied.

I'm just having fun. Great post. Very sincere.

Scars are reminders that maybe we zigged when we should have zagged. Carry them with you like trophies, with each one representing another certificate of completion.


SolarPowered0 111M
8023 posts
12/17/2005 12:47 pm

And I believe you.

Solar...


yagottalikit 50F
583 posts
12/21/2005 6:44 am

Thanks to all of you
I watch as others bare their souls through their blogs. I've found that some days it's rather easy to do....some days it feels too risky. You guys show me that I have nothing to fear. Exposing portions of myself (nahhhh not ready for THOSE kind of pics) isn't so difficult when so many accept and encourage! Thanks, again

Yagotta get it soft and wet so we can kick/stick it


trust2bdiscreet2 45M

1/5/2006 2:48 pm

Squirt Tail;

If I might be so bold as to remove an excerpt from your blog and play with it. With your permission I shall indulge myself.

"revealing scars requires trust."
"Trust requires belief."

Scars:

Scars are not revealed with the use of Trust. Scars are expossed to Trust. Why do some always feel the need to expose scars to Trust. Trust does not require that scars be revealed. Trust would rather take one as one is, scars and all. All have fallen short of the glory and are scared. It is not Trust's duty to reveal and judge the severiaty of ones scarring. It is Trust's duty to safely and honestly fullfill the void and emptiness left by a scar.

Belief:

Someone once told Trust that seeing is believing. Trust does not think this is so. Seeing is knowing. Knowing is whithout the use of any spiritual fortitued. Believing is within the relam of faith. Faith in the intangable. Faith and belief in what one can not use ones senses to confirm. If I can not feel, touch, or see something how can I convert the lack of sense stimulation into believing much less knowing. Believing requires faith. Trust does not require belief, he does however require faith. Faith is not hope. Faith is the avenue through wich grace is granted and delivered. Trust requires alot of faith. The lack on Trust's use of faith is a trajedy.

Trust believes in your words. Your words convey messages that in turn are the delicate patch work of thoughts. Thoughts that you want to share with me, and thoughts that I pull and shape from your words. Thoughts that lead to beliefs. Beliefs that lead to knowing. I know that your thoughts and mine are real.

Trust does not reveal scars. Trust takes your words to heal his scars, and empower himself to heal the scars of others with this new found energy derived from your thoughts.

Your words make my eyes jaded. Today I see no scars upon your soul. I only see through the worldly layers of protection and armour to reveal your purity.

Are my eyes truely jaded? Or do they they finally reveal the truth.
The truth is beuatiful. Truth will set you free.

Scar'd for life
Trust


yagottalikit 50F
583 posts
1/5/2006 7:49 pm

well, hell.....leave it to Trust to wander in and find me writing about him!!!!

I will only say that, although, Trust does not require scars to be revealed, revealing scars does require Trust. In my world, anyway.

Believing who someone claims to be.....that they are honest....
non-judgemental.....real.....etc., leads one to Trust that person... does it not?

Yagotta get it soft and wet so we can kick/stick it


trust2bdiscreet2 45M

1/8/2006 11:19 am

Squirt Tail;

I did not go looking for offense. I did not set out to offend. I was olny playing with your words. I do however understand if you have taken offense to my parasitic plagerism of your words.

I hope that this does not drive a wedge between you and I here in the ealry stages of our blogging relationship. I hope not. I could get real addicted to your thoughts and the way that you convey them.

I write the above in the spirit of friendship. I seek nothing in return from you. It doesnt take long digging through your blog to figure out that you have eclipsed the pinicle of your emotional journey. Good luck to the both of you!

What I do want and will make a huge fucking issue of, is this. I want you to keep blog'n. I relieze that you have someone in your life and that your direction is going to be ever changing. But, I must have your deep thought blogs. They are intoxicating, invigorating, and refreshing. I have to have them. The way that you write is addicting. DO NOT TAKE MY CRACK PIPE AWAY!!!!!

Blog me again
Trust


yagottalikit 50F
583 posts
1/12/2006 11:13 pm

wow! Is it healthy to consider being someone's "crack pipe" a huge compliment? Trust ~ you did not offend AT ALL!

Yagotta get it soft and wet so we can kick/stick it


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