Seriously: it's just me bitching  

willudomeharder 40F
194 posts
3/24/2006 12:11 pm

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4/5/2006 6:56 am

Seriously: it's just me bitching

You go through life..and you try to be a good person. Don't lie, don't steal, make other laugh when you can, be a good listener, pay your bills, wear your seatbelt and always always always give up your seat to an old lady on the bus. This is what I do. I don't lie or steal, I know a million and one stupid jokes that are guaranteed to make ANYONE crack up, and I hardly ever sit on the bus cause there's always someone who looks like they need it more than I do. I firmly believe in the "If you do good things, good things will come to you" philosophy. I do believe in karma and "what goes around comes around." So....seriously...when the crap are these good things going to come back to me?!

Rant #1 - I am SO tired. I am tired of always being the one that has to listen.....but hardly ever gets a chance to talk herself. Maybe I need to vent sometimes! Just because I don't have kids, I'm not married, I'm not dating anyone, don't possibly have some life-threatening disease, or have an urge to DRAMATIZE everything from the amount of cracks in the sidewalk to how an ashtray should be dumped after 2 cigarettes...does NOT mean that I don't ever need to talk! I love my friends, would do anything for any one of them....but for the love of God....they can be soooo selfish and mean sometimes.

Rant #2 - It is entirely possible that I am being too sensitive.....but that is just how I am. It comes from being a social outcast for the majority of my early adolescence. Once you have been the subject of other people's negativity...and been a target for all the sneers, jokes and realize how easy it is to hurt someone. Now that those days have over, I have physically changed alot about myself (not surgically). I'm happy with myself....but i swear there is still the fat girl with the thick glasses mentality when I see how people can act sometimes. I put up a poll in one of my last posts...and someone who responded proceeded to tell me that she thought I was being superficial. i can see how she might think that....but it takes some serious balls to read someone else's blog, respond to the poll that supposedly offended you so much, and then call the author superficial for putting it up. And THEN to not respond to their answer? Trust me...I am the last person that would judge someone based solely on their appearance. I don't really know why this paticular instance bugs me so much...but it really really does.

Rant #3) - There are 3 things that are guaranteed to instantly piss me off any day of the week and twice on Sunday:

#1) Messing with my family

#2) Messing with my friends

#3) Bullying

I absolutely cannot STAND to see anyone being belittled, berated, or otherwise made to feel bad about themself at the hands of someone in a position of some kind of power over them. Unfortunately, I work in a very very male dominated field...i see alot of this. Mental bullying is what I've decided to call it. I hate it...and anytime I see it happening, I do my best to diffuse the situation..but someone still ends up with hurt feelings.

Rant #4) - Vet bills are fucking ridiculous. My dog only weighs 8 the hell does it cost $484.52 for him to get "fixed," groomed, shots updated and boarded for one night?

Rant #5) - I am SO sick of married and/or co-habitating people tell me how lucky and smart I am to be single. They're doing the whole "we'll act like we're jealous of her freedom while we're really wondering is she's gay or just too picky" thing. All I have to say is "YOU ARE GOD DAMNED RIGHT I'm picky!" My parents divorced when I was 5, my father raised 4 kids by himself. I saw what that did to him and know how hard it was on us....when I get married and start a fmaily it will be yeah..I'm gonna be choosy about who I want to spend the rest of eternity with. Which sucks...because being alone isn't that great sometimes. You have the burden of everything on your shoulders. No one to cuddle with when you're snowed one to say hi to when you come home, no one to wake up with, no one to buy you something stupid and ridiculous which they don't care for..but they do it anyway because they know you like it. Yep...that's the part that sucks about being alone.

Rant #5) - Everything is too damned expensive. From clothes to gas to heat to sodas to movie tickets to cigarettes to all costs way too damn much.


OK - I'm pretty sure I have all the bitching out of my system now. Sorry if you've read all this way..must have been pretty boring...but thank you!

That which doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger.

constructionm62 55M

3/24/2006 6:58 pm

you just need a hard fuck

SlungSpeltDrugs 58M
82 posts
3/26/2006 7:25 am

I can relate to alot of what you have said. There comes a time in life when we all feel the need to say what about me danm it? Keep the faith and don't back down from what you feel is right. You seem a good hearted person and I hope you can find a person who is willing to give to you the same as you give to them without asking why.Keep writing your words are worth listening to. Tim

sittinlooking 34M
37 posts
3/26/2006 2:37 pm

there is nothing wrong with ranting... it seems like you needed a good one anyway... you ranted so hard you ranted #5 twice
anyway, hope things are going better for ya

Sy1777 58M

4/3/2006 7:24 pm

Rant! all u want. But it won't get u what u want and need.There's plenty of guys here that are ready and willing. Are You?

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