what was lost  

way2big2000 39M
18 posts
10/30/2005 4:28 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

what was lost

day 28 on my path to self hate. still here and still dead. no more love inside everything gone. way to drunk and high to be typing. waitting to understand. knowing i never will. still wanting her. wont ever see her again. pain still too much to take. nothing makes it go away. tried all a have not working. hate everthing. still love one. ready to snap. what's going to happen when i do? still hidding all of this. running low on weed cant hide it much longer.rage to high. heart broken. soul screaming. left with nothing but the why. all that i am is gone. all that i was is dead.

lifeisablast333 55M

10/30/2005 9:25 pm

get up, clean up, and go get another one, they are all over the place. hell get two, twice the fun.

konkali 41F

10/30/2005 9:57 pm

when you do?
you hit rock bottom, it sucks, you never come back the same, but you come back, reborn and recreated, andyou have to allow it..
it sucks pretty damn hard, but then you realize that shit! you're still breathing and you still will, despite whether you want to or not..
it's a strange path my friend, but you come back with soemthing diffrent..
and my dear, u are alive, and it has to hurt..

way2big2000 39M
16 posts
11/3/2005 1:07 am

it does hurt, what i came back with is to much for me to take. it hurt's more then i ever could have guessed. i thank you for your kindness

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