Personality Disorder  

vrec_dawn 41M
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6/19/2006 5:42 pm

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6/22/2006 3:33 am

Personality Disorder

Forgive me if I'm stuck in poetic mode. I just finished a good book that breathed some measure of life back into my soul. (That or it's the three cream-filled donuts I ate. )

But you know how some people have sometimes intense mood swings? I get those too, only they're not just 'mood'. It's like they're complete personality changes. Some last longer than others. Some are better, some are worse. I don't know. It's ... weird. But I can't help it.

Sometimes I wonder if that's how Robin Williams feels, like a whole different personality bursting to get free. Each different from the last. Each unexpected.

Or perhaps his is a different kind of crazy.

Sometimes I'm amazed that they haven't come for me yet, embracing me in a hug of armless love and medicated acceptance, where even the walls offer a soft embrace.

Iwakura16Eyes 38F

6/20/2006 7:50 pm

I get that way, too.... 'cept I dunno if it is anything bad...

when I feel REALLY confident.... the personality changes... when I feel shitty... the personality is lacking....

I dunno.... when I feel all sexy and confident... I get very... (how to describe?) vixen-ish? naughty, naughty temptress? very, very cynical (lol--more so than usual) and very, very sarcastic.... my mannerisms change and my language even... like I am frigging possessed... no clue.... I think it's kinda cool...

the more I come through my adaptations of starting to love myself more.... and appreciate the ME that is... well, erm.. ME! I see this other Mel coming out more... I kinda like her.... (I just wish my body matched my personality--both "normal" and "vixen-ish"

see? I just blithered away about this for too long... I am crazy, too, no?

vrec_dawn 41M

6/21/2006 4:10 pm

Crazy like a fox? But yeah. I don't know how crazy that really is or not. It sounds like a self confidence thing. And at least yours is sexy.

Not that mine is necessarily any different, but the sheer number and varieties of personality shifts that can hit me... Not all at once, and certainly there are a few common ones, but then there are a few that seem to just be one-timers. **shrug** I don't know. But then I never claimed to be sane. He he he he he. If I could tap it and control it, I could probably put on quite an interesting one-man variety show.

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