Open For Business  

vrec_dawn 41M
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9/3/2006 10:14 am

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9/4/2006 10:20 am

Open For Business

So Vrec's Delicate-Essen is open for business.

Well, maybe not at this exact moment because I haven't showered yet and I'm still riding the ups and downs of a lot of tender sharing and opening of new doors, but in the future, I will be open.

What does this mean exactly? I don't know. But that, perhaps, is the point. My heart is open once more. I have faith in myself that I never had before. And life is worth living.

I'd shut down pretty badly after my shitty marriage. It didn't always show. I tried to be a different person. But it wasn't totally me.

But now it is. I am that person. And I'm open once more. To what? To whom? That, my friends, is as open up to you as it is to me. It is my invitation.

Hopefully I have the courage to put myself out there again. To risk. To explore. To live. But I also offer this as an invitation to you. If you see me and want in, just knock.

Now, I won't say this means I'm easy. I believe in connections, and I have my own set of morals that probably only make sense to me. So just because you want me doesn't mean I'll say yes. But that doesn't mean I'll say no either.

It was put to me, scary as this seems to me, that I might even be best off exploring a loving couple. That because my heart is so big and that I have gifts for reaching people, that I could do a lot to help a struggling pair. Or even a happy one. And this is scary to me, not the least which because I don't often find men attractive, but also because, well, it's just fucking scary!

But I'm open.

I can't make any promises. All I can do is try.

I figure, it's a lot like how every so often I try a food I didn't use to like. Sometimes I still don't like it. And sometimes I learn to enjoy something new that I just wasn't ready for before. But you've always gotta try. And some flavors aren't meant to be enjoyed forever. They're there for rare special moments, or for moods, or whatever. They don't all have to be permanent staples to still be worth enjoying.

And that's me. I've gotta try. Life has too many flavors to not taste them all, because you never know what ones you'll like until you do.

druidrocker 63F

9/3/2006 9:21 pm

vrec_dawn replies on 9/3/2006 9:39 pm:

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