Can't Sleep  

vrec_dawn 41M
854 posts
1/28/2006 11:15 pm

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Can't Sleep

It's 1 in the morning and I'm wide awake. I've been awake since a bit after midnight, and have had a restless night since 10. Of course I went to bed at 8, which is, well, early.

It occurs to me that I need to stop drinking. I really don't need to get myself addicted right now, and I feel like I'm just acting stupid. Okay, yeah, so I'm depressed about my wife leaving me. But I don't need to run from my emotions by using alcohol.

I'm a big boy. I can take a little depression when it comes my way. And it's not like it comes my way constantly. It just hits me every now and then, mostly when I get bored, because then I just start to think too much for my own good.

Yeah, well, anyway, so that's that. I'll still drink socially, and I'm sure that one day I won't have any qualms about drinking alone. But for right now, it's something that I really just don't need, even if it is kind of fun.

When my dad died I saw my mother turn into an acoholic. It started out with an innocent little drink now and then. I really don't need to explore that same slippery path. I'm just glad that I recognize that now, instead of, say, months from now.

I don't regret doing it. It's an experience that I've never had before. And it has given me an opportunity to learn. But I just don't need to take it any further right now.

rm_jackie40503 71T
1323 posts
1/29/2006 4:08 am

Congratulations on seeing the truth before it becomes too late. Hiding from your emotions may seem the easiest path to follow, but by not learning to cope with them they will never go away and become harder to handle the longer you wait. I hide from a very emotional incident for over 30 years and am just now trying to come to grips with it. Its much harder now then it would have been back then but at least I have the chance, unlike those who hide from theirs through alcohol. Once addicted it becomes all about the alcohol and they never even realize what the real problem is. So once again I congratulate you on recognizing the problem before it too late.


rm_PurryKitty2 49M/51F
9753 posts
1/29/2006 5:20 am

I am glad you realized it now and have control.

Hang in there and keep your chin up. Things will turn around.

Purry {=}


gussax 52M

1/29/2006 6:29 am

Yeah, I'm in a similar boat, but not with alcohol. My vice is gambling. I've looked at the Problem Gambling websites and taken their tests and accordingly I am not a problem gambler, but why do I want to wait for a problem to create itself before I choose to stop. According to the websites, and other problem gambling information, it is not good to gamble due to loneliness. That is one of the reason I am sorta searching for a gal. I figure it would be cheaper in the long run. LOL

sexymermaid6956 64F
26393 posts
1/29/2006 8:06 am

good for you..looking the demons in the eye and taking control..congratulations are in order..keep up the good will get easier...


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