vrec_dawn 41M
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9/3/2006 9:40 am

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9/3/2006 9:36 pm


I know I promised that I would remember only the good, that I wouldn't get depressed. But can you share such a wonderful experience with such a beautiful person day in and day out like that and then not feel so very alone when they're gone?

I'll adjust. And I am happy. I'm just also ... alone. Hoping you're safe. Missing your voice, your eyes, your touch, your heart.

I was going to skip out on the family gathering today and just meditate, recouperate, and find my balance once more. But now I'm thinking I can't let myself be alone with myself right now. So maybe I'll go after all. And face all of those people that saw us on our date.

Life is a roller coaster, but they never warn you just how alone you can feel on one when your best friend is no longer a breath or a touch away.

vrec_dawn 41M

9/3/2006 6:17 pm

For what it's worth to anyone reading this, I hung out with the fam, and I'm not nearly so struggling with depression. Not that I wasn't happy while I was also depressed. Confusing, I know. But I'm even better now. Sometimes you just gotta ride these things out. Still, I'd rather feel them for all they're worth than try to not, you know? Like a good movie, song, book, etc. the best ones are the ones that play all of the emotions.

druidrocker 63F

9/3/2006 9:28 pm

Glad to hear you did the Fam thing - I am sure it was a little difficult and strange but it gave you time to decompress and I'll bet that the explanations helped you put a few things in perspective.
And while we may not have Paris - we'll always have Devil's Lake !

vrec_dawn replies on 9/3/2006 9:36 pm:
He he he he. Yep yep. Thank you.

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