Internet/Sex addiction  

verinice69 41M
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8/7/2006 8:10 pm

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8/7/2006 8:11 pm

Internet/Sex addiction

So, it's been a while since I last posted. In the mean time, I've spent a lot of time on AdultFriendFinder. Since I am not a paying member, most of what I did was chatting, since that is still free. And with that I got in contact with some women, most of which I just briefly chatted, some I chatted more via yahoo or aol.

I kept coming back to AdultFriendFinder to chat, to masturbate while I chatted, so look at members profiles, and to imagine how it would be to screw all of them. Shagging as many of them as possible became a very attractive thought. I haven't met a single person through it yet, but chatted with many, had cybersex with them and all that.

But I felt more and more that this was hollowing me out. I was craving things I would normally never crave. Why would I want to screw anyone indiscriminately? I got some pics from some women and I would never dream about talking to them in a bar, but here, all of a sudden, I was thinking about having sex with them.

And I would wake up in the morning and get online to see if anyone had written to me, or looked at my profile or was online for naughty chat.

While I was doing this, I also answered a post from a woman on Craigslist, who was looking for a friends with benefits type situation. I thought that this would be great - lots of sex and someone to hang around with. I even met this person, but wasn't turned on by her at all. I didn't like the way she looked, moved, talked, acted, drove, just about everything. When I met her, I knew, I would never sleep with her. But then, afterwards, we were chatting again, and I felt the urge to fuck her. Why? Well, I guess just because I felt I could. I was horny and wanted to screw her, just to prove, I could get her. But when I had finished masturbating to this thought, I realized that it was stupid. Why should I want to sleep with someone, I don't find attractive?

As you can see, this is pretty pathetic and I decided to stop it, and since I have, I feel much better. I wont screw anyone I met on the internet (have actually done that before almost a year ago and it wasn't great - the sex was ok, but it was such an awkward feeling), I'll stop to masturbate on a daily basis (I'll still masturbate, but only when I really feel like it and not just habitually), and spend more time doing useful things.

Well. So much for my little story, I hope it will show some of you out there, who got trapped in the same trap like me that we actually can just say "no". And I mean by no means that I am a great example of strength or whatever, all I am saying is, let's try and face the facts that this whole internet thing may bring us closer to sex, but probably not love. And love is much better than sex, and even better than that is sex with someone you love.

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