This is what happened.  

ur_sxy_lttl_btch 48F
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6/27/2006 6:47 am

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This is what happened.


I guess I need to start somewhere, not at the beginning, but right where I am now. I think a lot of guys don't understand how difficult an intitial meeting is. It's not so much the actual meeting, it's the getting ready, the shaving and especially the nervousness....Being in a relationship already, it takes a certain amount of planning. I have to admit, the nerves get control of me and I cancel sometimes, make excuses, etc. But eventually I meet, if I'm interested, that is. I met a guy locally who didn't have a face pic. I usually don't but this time I did. There was some extra dread there, but I was nicely surprised. He was totally hot and had beautiful blue eyes. He was nice and seemed to be attracted to me. There was only so much that could happen, because we were in a very public place. There was some kissing, rubbing etc. When he left he said email him when we could get together. I was extremely excited, he was very attractive and I told him so several times. He had told me what days he was available. So I set up a date with him for thursday and a time. He said in emails he was very excited. For one day after that initial meeting he filled my mailbox just like the past week. Then wed came and nothing, I emailed several times, not really knowing what to do, no response. I decided to go ahead and be ready for him. Although I didn't dress as he requested, I knew I could always change when he came. I had a bad feeling about it. Honestly I had a bad feeling from right after we started exchanging emails. And he sort of coerced me into finally meeting, I tried to break it off several times before we actually met. It sucked so bad, waiting for him to show up. I thought something had to have happened because he told me he had been stood up and I just assumed he wouldn't do something like that. But he did alright. Later that day, I got an email saying he was in out of state with his wife for a funeral. He was really secretive about some things, which made me overly curious. I looked at his profile and he had one friend in an area near here. The same day I got a hang up call from the same area, she is in. Probably just a coincedence, so I noticed a parking sticker on his car, researched the properties that he could possibly live. Well as it turned out he was in the first one I went to. Keep in mind-this guy knows my phone number and where I live. His car was there. I know I'm such a stalker. Well he could have went out of town to the funeral in his wife's car and I thought of this, so the next day, I did a drive by and his car was gone. Maybe he saw me the first time I drove by. He obviously wasn't out of town like he said he was. I sent an email to him saying I know he lied, that I'd seen him and to please dispose of my emails,pics, and emails. Interestingly enough he was offline here for about a week so he could have actually went out of town. I sent an apology saying I knew things came up and I was really sorry, that I'd like to see him. No response, then a week later he contacted this profile. I met him when i had a different one. I wrote back and said you met me and obviously didnt like me, and it would have been nice if he had responded to one of the 3 emails i sent. And I wished him good luck on his quest. No response. I know I take this waaay too seriously and I shouldn't be hurt, after all it's someone I barely know. But it does hurt my feelings. I don't know what is worse, the silence, or if he had told me he just wasn't attracted to me and why. I just think about all the things he wrote me before he met me, how bad he wanted to meet me was very obvious. Then after the meeting, he still wrote me emails like that. Then nothing.....There are other guys, I guess I made a bad choice when I selected him. Maybe he just likes the conquest but I think he's just looking for something better. I guess I shouldn't be playing around if I can't take the rejection.

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