Wow- It's been a while  

true_red1000 47F
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3/27/2006 7:07 pm

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Wow- It's been a while


Since I have posted last... Well I guess I just needed some time away.

Some time to think anout what is going on in my life. What things I have done in teh past and the things I hope to do in the future.

It's been 3 weeks and I am starting to get my thoughts in order again. I friend once told me that I am only happy when I have the next big thing in my life. Which is correct. When I got doen with high school - I went to college- when I was done with college- I moved to Milwaukee- when I was in Milwaukee - I got married- after that I got a house- then I had a baby- and another- and another- and now I have no big thing left to do.

I am not having any more kids. We have talked about buying a different house but have pushed it off until 2014. So I ahve tried to do little big things- change my hair color- loose weight all things that I can control.

so when I have sat down to think about it I believe that I am going through a mid-life thing.

Yes on friday I will be 35 years old and I am going through sucha selfish stage that nothing I do right now is making me very happy. Why is that??? I can still remember when I thought a 35 year old person was sooo old. Well now I am going to be that really old person. Funny I don't feel old. I still have my tassel from my graduation cap hanging in my bedroom, I still have the proofs from my senior pictures in a fram on the wall- that is the person I see- that is the person I know.

Am I trying to find the real me?? Is there a real me or jsut the one that everyone else knows??? At 35 I feel like I have done every thing there is to do. Just the the check list on the fridge. Milk - check. bread- check.
Married- check. kids- check.

I know that I will never go on some big trip or work some wonderful job. And I know that there are a lot of peopl ou tthere who would like to be where I am in my life. I am not going to give this up - but is it wrong to want more???

Nothing fancy, nothing great, just god and nice and is happy when I am happy.

Just wondering.
1971- life is wonderful
1989- the world is mine for the taking
1992- On my own ( kinda)
1997- It's going to be better now
2000- The love of my life
2001- Lost my soul
2002 -Another new begining
2005 - A star is born
2006 - A gallon of ice cream later...

rm_moosedrool73 45M

3/28/2006 12:47 pm

I just turned 33 yesterday, and feel alot of the same things you are. Done some interesting things, had alot of fun, and alot of people would love to be where I am in life...BUT why does it seem like something's still missing? If you ever want to talk or chat, It would be my pleasure.


rm_xtreem247 56M

4/3/2006 6:47 am

Hey Red
I think sometimes we tend to over think things. Once our minds start working it's hard to get it going in a different direction. I feel much the same, being 44 I still feel 32 and wonder where the hell the time went. It may sound lame but to appriciate all the things you do have really helps. Think of where you could be, it could be so much worse. Nothing is stopping you from doing something different, create your "big thing" in life. I went back to school at 31, best thing I ever did. Sometimes we get complacent and don't even realize it. Sometimes without knowing it we wait for the next big thing to happen, hence the saying "go out and sieze the moment".
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