JOY TO THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  

travelingintexas 42M
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6/14/2006 5:41 pm
JOY TO THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You seek but do not seek...
You find but do not truly find...
You wonder but do not truly wonder...
You see but do not truly see...


That which is before your eyes...

*SOB*

That’s some damn good poetry... Damn good... Whoever wrote it should get a pat on the back...

***Thank you! Thank you!***

Those words may not make sense to you but they sure as hell make total sense to me. Whether it be me or you I am talking about, I think we are all guilty of it from time to time. I have spent a year rebuilding, re-becoming if you will. Somewhere along the way, through depression, defeat, angst, destruction and loss, I thought if I just got through it then I would be ok.

Funny how when life finally rights itself, the same old, ever present issues still must be dealt with. I wanted a job so I could pay my bills. Now that I have one I don’t want to pay bills. I wanted a job so I could get up in the morning and feel productive. Now that I have a job I don’t want to get up in the morning.

I have been in a funk this last or two weeks. A bad one. A seasonal one. The very same one that occurs yearly and brought me to my knees every year before this one. The one that payed a major role in my being here in the first place and the destruction of my life, my choices of course not forgotten.

Believe it or not, I didn’t recognize it until my ex reminded me it was this time of year that I cycle down. Funny really, I have spent the last year recouping from last years summer blues and forgot to look out for what was in front of my face.

I seek but don’t seek... If you will...

However, I have taken steps this time around to resolve it....

I won’t go back to that hell....over my lifeless and cold dead body will I go back to that hell again...

On a lighter note, I just got back from dinner...

I am pretty sure I embarrassed myself 79 times. Made an idiot of myself 179 times. Just plain looked like a fool 2079 times...

When she got out of the truck to leave and said I had beautiful green eyes, shut the door and walked off without another word the look on the embarrassed, idiot, foolish, bewildered, speechless Trav’s face?

PRICELESS!!!

I was star struck.... ooooooeeeeeeee gooooeyyyyyy.... Duh...... Someone hit me on the head? Speechless (Me? Yup.... me...) And bewildered....

What the hell just happened?

Oh gurus of all thing women.... (and I am talking to the women not the men who are still flashing dick pics and don’t get it...)

What the hell do I do now?????????

You know me... I tend to talk too much, explain too much, wonder too much, question too much, ask too much....

I don’t seek but I find...

Bewildered and thrown Trav



cookiequeen1000 54F

6/14/2006 6:29 pm

Call her up and take that woman out for ice cream and some kid-fun in the park on the swings, and see what develops from there. She sounds very interested. Stop talking, stop explaining, stop wondering, stop questioning, and stop asking so much. Just go with it & have fun.


rm_DaphneR 59F
8023 posts
6/14/2006 7:04 pm

Get past being tongue-tied and shy. You do have gorgeous eyes and plenty to go along with it. Now, if I said that to you you'd come right back at me with something, because you know me. It's easy to do that with new people too baby, just have to practice.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.


rm_PurryKitty2 49M/51F
9753 posts
6/14/2006 9:20 pm

Leap and you shall find

Miss ya too baby! Call me tomorrow!

Purry {=}

Purry


benibluetwo 48F

6/14/2006 9:54 pm

We are our own worst enemy. To have expectations about things leads to disappointments. Relax and remain true to yourself, don't try to change anything because she likes you for who you are. Keep working on The-Man-You-Have-Always-Wanted-To-Be and let her work on her own things. Love is loving yourself and getting something back not just putting out(pun not necessarily intended for this site). If she ends up not seeing the wonderful man you are then she has missed out and you have side-stepped something wrong for you to begin with.

Deep breath....relax....let it happen without making it happen.

XOXOXOXOXOX

benibluetwo

XOXOXOXOXOX


EyeCandy33333 45F
761 posts
6/14/2006 10:45 pm

Give her some daisies-just a few.I used to pick morning glories and those "bumble bee thingies" and proudly give them to my Mom-they would close up tight-but to this day she still is so happy I did that!
She told the preacher when he came by and showed him the flowers I picked -in a little glass with water. He told her they were the most special flowers she ever received probably -while he looked at them all tightly closed up and smiled.Mom said yes they were.


pretty_blue_eyes 39F
2091 posts
6/15/2006 8:17 am

I understand what you mean. If some things were a snake, they would have bit you! Here is the thing though, we only see what we want to see. We only "find" what we want. It takes others to point out things we don't want to recognize about ourselves, hopefully its a friend doing it. God bless friends, they are with us through the good times and bad.

Sorry your evening out didn't go quite as planned. As long as she was laughing and having fun, I wouldn't worry. Sexy eyes go a longggggg way. She sounds interested, maybe she didn't want to stress you out anymore that night. lol. Ask her to go do something fun, where there is not alot of talking involved, but you are both able to be together and get goofy. By the way, I like your picture, very nice.


rm_mm0206 70F
7767 posts
6/15/2006 10:12 am

roses...
baby roses...
pink and yellow baby roses..

with a poem...

m.


want2play926 46F

6/15/2006 12:51 pm

This is one thing I don't understand...You are such a catch! A wonderful guy and you are so shy...so humble.

I think simple flowers would be great to give her, or a call, text, something like that.

You are a smooth guy Trav...smooth with words on the blog. She is not going to think less of you...you are too terrific.

Hope everything works out for you.

Kisses


rm_saintlianna 46F
15466 posts
6/15/2006 5:25 pm

Dont do : Serenade her with a banjo rendition of "I want you to play with my Ding-A-Ling" then take her on the mobile version of "A Tour of Mexican Cuisine" aka drive-thru burritos at Taco Bell.

Do do : Just be your goofy lovable self and you will be fine.


LadytoPleaseYou 65F
5447 posts
6/15/2006 8:39 pm

You are too uptight, man.....lighten up, just lighten up

PENIS CHARMING....where are you?


LustyTaurus 49M
21253 posts
6/15/2006 11:14 pm

    Quoting rm_saintlianna:
    Dont do : Serenade her with a banjo rendition of "I want you to play with my Ding-A-Ling" then take her on the mobile version of "A Tour of Mexican Cuisine" aka drive-thru burritos at Taco Bell.

    Do do : Just be your goofy lovable self and you will be fine.
That's pretty good advice Trav...although you could try "what A Wonderful World" on a Saxophone...


TTigerAtty 63M

6/16/2006 1:54 pm

Trav ... Even though she likes your green eyes, I was just wondering if you had your zipper zipped up, your shirt tail in your shirt, that sorta thing? Did you cut wind, Trav? Or belch real loud? Those sorta things can get a fellar in trouble with some women folk! At least the more particular ones!


rm_LilBlondeNZ 41F
1028 posts
6/17/2006 11:11 am

You do have awesome eyes...

A


Steel_Legs 60M/F

6/18/2006 5:41 am

Hey, be a man and face reality. This is 2006 and women know what they want. If she wanted you, she would have made it clear, possibly by grabbing you by the crotch and dragging you to her, (car, home, tent, dungeon, etc.).

As for the comments about you having great eyes. Have any of those women jumped your bones? If so, good for you. If not, as I suspect is the case, you might as well consider the notion that women say they want one thing, though what they really want (and will go after) is all together different.

My advice is that you learn a mantra which you would memorize every morning and at night before bed and particularly when you meet or are with a woman. Something like "My name is (state your name), women everywhere want and desire me." This mantra will do nothing for your self confidence, sex appeal or overall manliness, but it will give you something solid to point at when considering how it is that another one got away.

All the best,

Steel (Lee)

PS - My single handle is 3XLoser2, so you might bear that in mind regarding my advice.


Steel_Legs 60M/F

6/19/2006 1:51 pm

After reading much of your blog it occurs to me that your sense of humor, honesty and sincere nature probably get you laid more than even Steel, (in his own imigination), and that's saying something.
"Legs" Sheri


GlialSewerEuler 70M
73 posts
6/20/2006 9:39 am

Well it seems that there are a lot of people whose whole life is spent saying coulda, woulda, shoulda. I've made a million mistakes but I don't beat myself up for being human! The thing to do is recognise you are not perfect and don't make the same mistakes over and over again,. That's called growing up!!


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