Hark The Herald...  

travelingintexas 42M
6/9/2006 8:26 pm
Hark The Herald...

Gawd Damn it... You can’t have any more of me! I absolutely refuse to pour out the very essence of who I am, to think and dream and hope and figure out ways to shock and surprise you over and over again. Seduction of the mind is not a one sided act. What you propose we do by your taking and not returning equals an emotional vacuum at the cost of my soul.

I have only a small window of opportunity to turn your world upside down, so I go beyond the normal, go beyond the extraordinary, into a realm you only dreamed was possible, yet my efforts fail. Oh you say you appreciate it. Sure you thank me. Sure you smile. Yet you hold back. You keep something in reserve. Why doesn’t my sacrifice and attempt become your launch into the realm of what you say you want, yet refuse to go after. Are you that scared? Does the past hold you so completely? Must I be painted with the same brushes you use for them?

Do you not know the moments, the desires, the thoughts I spent thinking and planning the small things that make you smile just a little? Do you not realize how much of myself I poured into you and you can’t be bothered to offer 50% much less 100%. Is your talk nothing but you spouting the words everyone says but very few attempt? Oh I want this, you say, oh I want that, Oh I wish, I wish, I wish.

You wish nothing. You hope nothing. You want nothing. You are emotionally lazy and shoot no higher than what you “feel” you deserve because you lack the esteem to expect and truly desire more and somehow blame me. Shallowness covers you completely, your lack of caring appalls me. I gave of myself, invested my soul into you immediately and without reserve and you act as if I should feel honored when you offer a feeble smile that has the life of a extinguished match. Give to me what I give to you. Meet me there in that place. I dare you. I truly do. Can you see beyond the cesspool of your past to the glory of your future? Dare with me, step into truth and speak it. Confidence is borne of one with the fortitude to speak true.

Oops... Time is up...

I gave of myself, from the start. You never even lined up at the starting blocks.


Ever had a date where you wanted to speak your mind freely?

One down, how many more to go until I’m hit by that fallen star? Gawd, she is going to be freaking hot; mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually, I just know it.

Trav, how do you know she is gonna be above and beyond everything you ever dreamed of?

Because I am above and beyond everything she ever dreamed of.

That’s the way it works my babies, that is the way it works.

And when we meet.... we will run....

rm_DaphneR 59F
8023 posts
6/9/2006 9:13 pm

"And when we meet.... we will run.... "

I just hope for your legs' sake it's not like 8 or 9 miles. That was hard enough just walking.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

want2play926 46F

6/9/2006 9:21 pm

It does seem that one gives so much more then the other. I never understood that. Countless times I feel I have been short of cutting out my own heart for the person that I love and hand it to them....only for them to reject it.

I have learned this week, that if one tosses me aside, I brush myself off and I will not let that defeat me. I have traveled too far and seen too much to give up on the MAN that is not scared to SHOW his love..be ROMANTIC...SWEEP me off my feet.

That is my dare to a real man...I dare 'him' to show me romance and sweep me off my feet...you will not be disappointed

rm_gerson42 53M
2419 posts
6/9/2006 10:14 pm

Im feelin ya here.

rm_1hotwahine 64F
21091 posts
6/9/2006 11:57 pm

Wow, I could relate to these last two posts because I've recently gone through very similar extremes. I have a name for mine, tho. I call it Menopause.

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]

sweetmbn2 43F

6/10/2006 12:50 am

Your words are salve to one who has seen the fallen star, felt the explosion and watched her love one be taken from her by a job. A toast to the future, in hopes that you find yours and I am re-united with mine.{=}

willing2tryit42 41M
1141 posts
6/10/2006 1:24 am


GoddessOfTheDawn 106F
11240 posts
6/10/2006 6:32 am

gud one

gud luck....

rm_LilBlondeNZ 42F
1028 posts
6/10/2006 8:41 am

SO I guess the date didnt go as well as you had hoped it would?

That sucks.

But somehow its good to be in a place where you're disappointed by people. Not that it's good to be disappointed; that part of it sucks.

However, there was a time where I was never once disappointed by a man.
And it was the saddest part of my life.

I was just so happy to have *anything* from anyone that I settled for the smallest scraps. Having standards and expectations wasn't something I thought I deserved to have. I'm nothing. Who am I to be picky. Beggars can't be choosers; I'm lucky anyone is even interested in me at all.

Although I still have moments where I doubt my underlying selfworth, I'm happy I had the sense to recognize my star

And *run*

It'll happen for you too. I know it.


BlondieEuro 54F

6/10/2006 8:53 am

I know also where your coming from. Dont know if anyone realise what they are doing half the time or mean anything. When I am so full of so much to give but now where to give it. So the words of despair pour out just as yourself, beleiving these gotta be something better for me out there. Have a good one. BlondieEuro XXX

Aaarrrggh 46M

6/10/2006 4:30 pm

Very stark opinion of someone, but i'm highly suspicious when they view the other as wanting nothing, hoping nothing and wishing nothing...it seems to me that her restraint was construed in a negative light--after all, isn't it her right to be reserved? Perhaps your mind was made up before the whole thing began? Try not to focus on her reservations, and maybe do something about your expectations.

cookiequeen1000 54F

6/10/2006 4:57 pm

Its a good thing. She's not worthy. You should be glad she let you know right off.

Yes, you have a lot to give. Yes, its fun to get laid and the newness of it all. But don't people have to earn anything anymore? Prove their worthiness of you? of your time? There's no dress rehersal for life. What you have to offer is precious and unique and should be earned. It means more then. Dating is all about learning about people. When they evidence their unworthiness its time to move on. You were looking when you met her right?

Now if you don't like what you're catching, its time to change your bait.

rm_goddess1946 107F
13518 posts
6/10/2006 8:27 pm

I always speak my mind freely..
gets me into a whale of trouble sometimes...

and on all of the other counts, I hear you loud and clear.
All in it's perfect time, kiddo...

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

rm_corezon 54F
3376 posts
6/11/2006 12:50 pm

How do strangers become friends and lovers? It's almost magical...

but somebody has to lay a card down on the table and then someone else has to follow suit

I don't advise laying out the whole deck at the start of any one game

Never be too easy

Start out like you mean to finish

If it's meant to be and potential connection is there, card by card will work...if not, it isn't worth the effort anyhow, believe me

be real...give it time to grow, give it time for the exchange, time for trust...real trust is something that has to be earned...most of us DON'T want to be rushed...most of us don't want too much at first because we don't want to feel obligated to return something that we aren't feeling yet or aren't sure of...being romanced is fine and dandy but it's not a substitute for real substance...and that takes time, card by card {=}

QueenOfSwords 35F

6/12/2006 6:24 am

I always feel that I can speak my mind freely, but perhaps thats why I dont have many dates

TTigerAtty 63M

6/12/2006 12:09 pm

I can relate, Trav! I once invited a lady friend out on a special date. I planned it for days, I fretted over it, I bought a new bottle of 'Old Spice' after shave, I took a bath, even put on a clean shirt. I thought I might get 'lucky' so I even put on a fresh pair of my least holey underbritches.

I pulled up in my '73 Chevy pickup truck. (It was lookin' pretty good too! I had thrown all the empty beer cans and whiskey bottles from the cab into the bed of the truck and even wiped most of the dust off the interior.) I took that gal down to the pool hall and spent a whole $5.50 on her for pool, beer and potato chips. Things were goin' pretty good I figured, and so I suggested that we head on home. She was very amenable to my suggestion and so I thought I might get lucky. When I pulled up in front of her place, she jumped out, cussed me, slammed by truck door and then ran for the front door of her house. I never did figure out what I had done wrong. She wouldn't take any of my calls after that.

So, I just assumed that she was disappointed that I didn't take her to the drive-in movie theatre. After that, when I had a date, I'd always take 'em to the drive-in movie theatre instead of to the pool hall. I found out that you can neck in them drive-in movie theatres and that's what I think women are most interested in doin'!

I hope this advice help ya'!

aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
6/13/2006 12:51 pm

Can we at least hold hands while we run??

hornylilgirl78 107F

6/14/2006 4:59 pm

geez - sounds like most of my dates lately.


"As kinky as a cheap garden hose!"

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