soooooo curious  

tkygirl 47F
14 posts
4/10/2005 11:22 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

soooooo curious

within the last few months i have feel like i have come out of a fog. my first sexual experience 18 years ago was with a man 7 years older. i was newly 16 and he was into a lot of things that i had not been privy to in my teenage years. he was so careful with me, gave me books to read on giving and receiving oral, tested my spontaneity, tested my every want and desire. when he realized i was not reaching an orgasm i became his sole mission in life for about 3 months. it was the best sex i have ever had, unfortunatley i was too young to realize it and the only place we got along was in the bedroom, the pool, the car, the courthouse, etc (wherever we decided to have sex)

Here i am 18 years later, married for 10 years and suddenly realizing what i have at home is not enough. I feel like my hormones have awakened, unfortunately i no longer feel attracted to him - i do my wifely duties, i never say no when he wants to. but i have not been on the receiving end of our sex life for a very long time. i have not made the decision to leave, dont know if i ever could hurt him that way. I have not crossed any lines yet, soooo tempted with someone of the AdultFriendFinder men i have chatted with. i have to work thru issues of how to do so and not get caught, so if you read this i apologize that i didnt arouse you, but i really would love to hear from anyone who can help me be as secretive and safe as possible

mnfun952 103M

4/10/2005 12:10 pm

You are with MANY friends on this site who (for whatever reason) are seeking more from their sexual adventures. Be careful, have fun and follow your desires.


rm_indul_gent1 57M
89 posts
4/10/2005 12:12 pm

You're not alone. How do we reconcile these awakened feelings? I'd be interested to hear more.

lustmirror 64M
2897 posts
4/10/2005 12:16 pm

approach each boundary slowly, and experience each aspect. don't rush ahead, as you may miss another path, one that may lead home. sound it out, feel each quiver. once we act, we cannot unact, and we would rather own up to an act, rather than have to keep it hidden. if freedom is what you seek, try not to create a cage for yourself. deception always bites us in the ass.
his mind cannot have lost the realisations it once held. I have to believe his concerns for your hunger must still be there. consider that he may not be holding the door shut.

EagerBeaver41 56M

4/10/2005 1:20 pm

People are always hurt with separation and/or divorce. I admire your concern for your hubby's feelings. But, if you let it control your life you'll never be happy.

Lapkin4u 43F

4/10/2005 1:57 pm

you need to find a time where he is always gone and you are home.....I work varied shifts at work so i can set up meetings in the evenings and say that i have to work....that has worked very well...he is none the wiser...also he works days so on my days off i have been able to meet during the day occasionally......unfortunately affairs include alot of lies to get what u desire...if you want it bad enough you'll find a way.
just keep track of what you are doing and saying.....dont use the excuse your going shopping and come home with nothing....LOL....Good luck to you I hope you find a way to make yourself happy.

rm_EuroMale133 48M
2 posts
4/10/2005 2:08 pm

Creative minds should be able to work out your solution...time and opportunties are always

rm_Guillaume01 62M
40 posts
4/19/2005 7:22 am

Guillaume01 could help you being as secretive and safe as possible!
Take care,

nastyplay4u 52M

4/23/2005 6:33 am

I have chatted with her many times.she is a very sweet lady and very funny,also very pretty.I`m in the same boat,its hard for me to get away at nights and evenings,but daytimes are easier.I tell you be discreet,don`t tell anymore lies than you have too,they get hard to keep up with and keep straight.As for his feelings,if he finds out denie everything.and stick with it.

bubsjr8fan 43M
1 post
4/24/2005 10:27 pm

don't go all the way yet. first find a friend you can trust, tell them how you feel. maybe that person is the oppurtunity you are waiting for.

chalk2 55M

4/28/2005 5:00 am

well just try going to the store and see who is looking at you but do it in the next town over and you may teach your hubbie some new things to awaken your sex life

rm_Purple894 46M

4/30/2005 12:01 pm

Discretion is always the better part of valor. If you talk to someone and they do not understand what you are looking for is when you could get caught. Then on the other hand there is always times that you do not even think about that you could be the sexual desire you prefer.

lokinforlove5150 47M

6/7/2005 11:16 pm

Maybe u need to tell him exactly what you want and need without complaining or being negative, men are different too and need to be guided every once in a while. If he is a total idiot and will not listen to your need no matter how much you explain in detail what u need, then you have to fulfill your desires and complete your inner needs so when u wake up everyday, u feel life has not passed u by...

kapaj212 45M

6/8/2005 10:06 pm

just tell him how you feel, and be honest. you never know, he may be feeling the same way and not wanting to hurt you. i just went through a divorce and we are both alot happier now. i stopped loving her years ago and i knew she didn't love me. i was just waiting for her to bring it up. she finally did, but i wish i would have years ago. hang in there. everything happens for a reason.
good luck. if you end up wanting someone else on the side, make sure you can completely trust them. it's always better if they're not in your city (hint hint, ha ha). again, good luck. i know it is a hard decision to make.

fastfred4u 56M

6/10/2005 1:52 pm

wow i feel the same way you do . i want a lot of those exciting things also glad ya ya brought it up i dont feel so bad now

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