stupid polar bears  

tipadee 37F
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11/14/2005 5:17 pm

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stupid polar bears


Today was not a good day. It wasn't a bad day, just wasn't good.

Ahh. Shit. I don't even know really where to start. Not that there was anything I could have really done about it. It sounds like I am avoiding getting down to it. I'm not. This is what is was.

Cranky. Bitter. Annoyed.

All those things are making my day bad. Nothing seems to be going my way. Alright, it's not completely true. I finally met a nice guy. That is saying alot, because I believe there no such thing. Everyone is nice at the beginning. It's how it goes from there. Plus there is no great way to end it. Being mean is one way to assure that they will leave you alone from now on, but you have to be sure that you want that. Then there is being really nice, too nice. That makes you look like a pussy. Ahh .. my personal favorite is avoidance. They simply pretend that you no longer exist. Ironically that one hurts the worst. There is no real closure with that one. Makes you go through all the levers of acceptance: shock and denial, fear and panic, anger, bargaining and dispair.

That is not what this is about. Trying to figure out what you might regret. That is life. What do you do?? Nothing. Would you do it if you knew what was going to happen? Nothing.

So anyway, life gives you choices and you make your own path. What is the right one?? Who knows.

This probably doesn't make any sence, and I don't think I can explain why it's making me so unhapppy, but life is life, and I needed to get everything out. That's not even close to everything, but I am starting to babble, and nothing is making sence.

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