Whats up with this guy?  

thesexscholar 34M
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6/17/2006 5:33 pm

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7/28/2006 2:37 pm

Whats up with this guy?

ok heres the scoop,

I am not openly gay. In fact the whole anal sex thing turns me off.

With that said I’m bi-curious and have been sense before puberty. before you get all like this guys gay and he doesn't know it, I would like to clarify some things.

I love both the MALE and FEMALE form. I think they are both unique and special in their own ways. I love to photograph both. I have been with several girls in my life relationships but have never told them that I have an overwhelming urge to be very close to guys.

I have been with a couple guys before oral and hand jobs, really amateur shit not saying I am anything special but I enjoyed that as much as being with a women its different carnal lust over passionate love. And I Like both.

I could never tell my family or friends because my family is really important to me I know they are loving, caring and understanding they have supported me through out my life, right or wrong. I don’t think they are ready for this. I don’t want to do anything that would affect the bond we have.

Friends I think it may devastate most of my friends as growing up to feel normal I was always the one calling everyone else gay or homo or telling gay jokes. I feel like the biggest dick, ashamed of myself those aren’t the values in life I strive for. I know I would be disappointed if one of my friends came and told me they were gay, disappointed that they felt they had to hide it from me and what else could they be hiding from me.

On the other side if I keep this inside any longer I just may explode. I see guys when I am out and think he’s hot but I can’t say that, At least not in front of friends and family. This is my life a life of silent desperation.

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