I've noticed  

teaser2009 35F
149 posts
8/9/2006 2:20 am

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8/16/2006 4:40 pm

I've noticed

That on a lot of the dating sites, its the same damn guys over and over again. My favorites are the guys who I dated a few years ago. Wow, they wouldn't be able to handle me now. I was too much then, well i've grown up and know how I should be treated and how I want to be treated, which isn't how most of them did treat me. I look at these things and it just kind of makes me giggle and it makes me a bit sad. Where is my happy couple at? And by happy couple, I mean the guy who with me, makes me a happy couple. Thats really all I want. That's all anybody wants really I think. To have someone to come home to. It's so much nicer to have someone to love and who loves you, then to be alone.

Also, I've noticed that i'm afraid to initiate contact with guys. I'm afraid of being rejected. Now you may think "nikki, you're beautiful, who would turn you down??!?!?!!" Well kids, there are people who do. They say i'm not their type, they've met someone else (then why the hell you still hanging out on a dating site?? huh???), blah blah blah. In reality, i'm not cute enough or maybe my personality really doesn't go with theirs. FYI-i'm the biggest spaz on the computer (and kind of in life) you have to get to know me to understand me. You can't just glance over someone and be like "oh i read a little bit about you and I don't like you" What?!? That's not fair!!

Funny thing, on true.com (another site i'm on, shut up), there was a profile that was apparently hacked by the girlfriend of the guy. It said "I have a live in girlfriend of 1 year and i'm still on this site. I'll cheat on her and I'll cheat on you too". That seriously cracked me up. I remember when I stumbled across one of paul's profiles somewhere online. I was heartbroken. So i went to him and said "honey, what is this about?? Are you looking for other women behind my back?" Answer "no, i'm not..it's not really a dating site". Well he knew I monitered his activity on the board, but he never did anything overt anymore. I remember when I was dating another guy (who was dating multiple girls, back before I realized you could do that), and i found him talking to me (disgusied as someone else) on a dating site. Wow..I don't think I ever told him about that either.

I just have noticed that a lot of the men in the ads are like "i want someone to love and hold forever" yet they don't want someone real like me. They want one of those not cute girls...when in reality, if they gave me a chance, i'm sure i could at least be friends with them (never hurts to have some guy friends when you're sad).

Just frustrating. And then there's you, (you know who you are) who's working too much for his own good and thus we haven't gotten to hang out. Annoying as the dickens, when i drove to STL to hang out with an asshole of a guy who has effectively ignored me for a week..that's ok, I deleted him from my life. It's all good. He has a thing for "thick" girls, told me i was sexy and he wanted to "eat [my] ass" and haven't really heard from him since. Yay for me for learning to not throw myself at people, no reason for it. I'm an amazing woman who deserves to be treated amazing.

That's really all kids

love you!!

stay sweet and rock on

STCMOguy4fun 38M

8/15/2006 11:40 am

I am sorry you have been having crappy luck as of late...

I hope it gets better


wantsomefun5658 35M

8/15/2006 9:13 pm

at times like that you should relax, sit down on the couch and watch the latest romantic comedy that teaches you that if your blonde, have a big chest, and weigh less than 125 lbs you will always make out ok in life.

teaser2009 35F

8/16/2006 1:54 am

Hahaha...yeah, that's what i need to do. I'll do that with a gun in my hand so that when the movie is over i can shoot myself.

As far as my luck, apparently I have some bad mojo out there and karma is kicking my ass for it. Eventually all the good things will catch up with me too.

Also, i need to not write blogs when i'm bitter. Bitter blogs are no fun. In reality i keep this bittnerss all locked away for just myself to see (well and here), but i'm very happy go lucky, dorky some might say even. but like i've said before, no one wants to find out sometimes, and that's fine, their loss

rm_SoftLicks3 71M

8/16/2006 1:32 pm

Sex and physical contact are what draws men and women together. This is good and pleasurable. However, love, caring, and thoughtfulness are what keeps men and women together. Anyone can have sexual encounters, but they are so much more exciting if you have closeness and feeling for each other. I've been told there is someone for everyone. I hope that's true.

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