Insomnia struck hard...  

tampafem 45F
1941 posts
7/24/2006 3:45 am

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Insomnia struck hard...

Slept from 730 til 1030. It's 630 now. Couldn't get back to sleep. Had the wierdest frickin dream when I did doze. Every time I would doze I'd slowly wake up, just think of a bubble rising in the water, that's kind of what it felt like.

The dream:
I'm in my apartment and it's nighttime. Son is asleep in his room and I'm in the living room completely naked (which never happens with the kiddo home lol). My apartment is the way it is now with one exception. There's almost like an outer hallway. Anyone can enter my apartment, there's no door. The only way in and out of the place is the door on the outer hallway which leads to other apartments. I feel through the blinds someone's watching me (yes insert Somebody's Watching Me song here). So I go closer to the window, which has no glass just blinds for privacy and I peek out. The blinds have been pulled up a few inches so I push my head through it to look out the other set of blinds that are on a window but no one is there. So I decide it's bedtime, shut down the computer and I start walking to my room, except I never make it there. I pass out face down on the carpet from sheer exhaustion. I can feel the roughness of the carpet on me, and worrying about my son finding me passed out anywhere but in bed. I come to and crawl toward my bed and out loud I say "Somebody help me".

Pretty weird but a lot of it makes sense to me. Right now I feel like I'm drowning in a decision I'm struggling with. The nakedness is the vulerability I feel. Passing out is that I know how good it would feel to finally put this issue in order and "to rest" so to speak. The apartment having no windows and doors is because my home feels very empty lately with just me and Austin and no one coming to visit.

A few positive weekend notes I forgot to mention. A guy I met here on AdultFriendFinder (chat and email only) emailed me yesterday. Was nice to talk with him again. We swapped numbers this time and hopefully will meet. He makes me laugh. So to my "tuba player" LOL Thank you for reaching out again it is truly good to hear from an old friend.

I got another nice email from an AdultFriendFinder'er this morning as well. So to those of you who want to give up looking on this site don't. I've been on here on and off for years, keep plugging away

Off to shower and get a little boy dressed. Then I'm hitting Starbucks for a HUGE coffee to get me through my day. By the time I get home I'll have been up 20 hours and we all know what happened last time I was up that long. Crossing fingers here that I can drive home safely.

Lioness_girl 46F
3494 posts
7/24/2006 5:03 am

Hey girl, the best thing for you to do would be to EAT so that you don't have another passing out episode like that. You be careful going home today.

Drop me a line later when you get a chance. I'll be online then.


Come have fun! Visit my blog at Lioness_girl

AltumHunksUnite 54M

7/24/2006 4:02 pm

Avoid the "Gold Coast" blend. It really has a negative effect on "mood".

Let me drive. I like the view

33bradentonmale 45M

7/31/2006 6:37 am

You need a hug and someone to just hangout with and have fun , and the other post with the weight thing , dont worry about it you be yourself, Not all of us guys think the supper model skin and bones look is great. Please eat something trust me food is a good thing and a happy girl is even better.

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