Me, the Runaway Freight Train.  

sunshinekzn 59F
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7/27/2006 6:37 am

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8/1/2006 12:28 pm

Me, the Runaway Freight Train.

My dear hubby tells me I make him feel as if he is on a runaway freight train. I give him a rush of excitement, a thrill a minute ride, but at the same time I scare him shitless because he knows it could go off the rails at any moment and end up a huge train wreck. He does not know what I am going to get up to next.

He loves me very much, but he hates me too. Love and hate are very close. For many years he was married to this sweet, kind, submissive wifey.

It was as if I was leading a double life. At work I was assertive and a hard worker, but also a hard player. Every day as the bank closed its doors, I would start having fun with my employees, making them laugh histerically.

I am good at hiding my feelings from people. Making fun of myself and getting people to laugh at my own expense was my way of relieving my pain. My clients and staff loved me for it.

At home my hubby was the fun person. I was the stern mother, keeping our girls on the right track. I know he will hate me for saying this, but we led separate lifes. He had a lot of people demanding his time and attention and it felt to me as if I was forgotten on the sideline. I often wondered if he ever really knew me and liked me for who I was.

I have changed a lot since January last year. I just got tired and fed up with the stress of working in the bank. I was working as the Bank Manager and decided I had had enough of dealing with rude and obnoctuous clients. Always smiling and being Mrs nice guy.... I resigned not knowing where I was going next.

The journey of finding myself began sometime after. I also wanted to feel loved again and to feel appreciated as a woman. To me it felt as if my hubby did not want to make love to me anymore and I needed to know if other men would find me desirable. That was how I ended up joining AdultFriendFinder.

Before you think this is an invitation, it is not!! My hubby and I are working through all the misunderstandings and commited to working hard at restoring our once loving and unshakeable relationship.

We are both adults who enjoy sex and we do want to make friends to have fun with. I want to make it very clear, I am not here looking for a soul mate or just a roll in the hay behind my hubby's back. We would enjoy making friends, going for a drink, having a dinner party, watching sport, but if the feeling is mutual, we could enjoy adult fun together too! You never know what the future may bring.

The one dream that I do have is that we will grow old together and still like each other as friends and lovers.

rm_daisy9060 47F

7/28/2006 10:19 am

I knew that there was a reason that I liked you sunshine - you are fabulously real

sunshinekzn 59F

8/1/2006 12:27 pm

    Quoting rm_daisy9060:
    I knew that there was a reason that I liked you sunshine - you are fabulously real
My mother use to say "So gemaak en so laat staan". It was surpose to be a insult but I like thinking I am what you see is what you get. I like you too. You are one of the special people on AdultFriendFinder!

Take care

sunshinekzn 59F

8/1/2006 12:28 pm

    Quoting DustyWidget:
    Well there go my hopes and dreams. xx
Dusty i would never want to shatter your dreams. Lets rather dream together. LOL

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