Have you ever noticed....  

rm_songbird5419 63F
301 posts
8/9/2006 9:25 pm

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Have you ever noticed....

...that when something special happens in your life that everything else in your life takes on a whole new aura? Perhaps a loss?...perhaps a new friend or lover?

Within the past few weeks, several very special things have happened in my life. I've welcomed some amazing new people into my little corner and that has brought immeasurable joy. But this evening I had to attend a memorial service for a very special woman who died way too soon. She was a member of the congregation for which I am the music director.

When I first began my work at this place...it was very difficult for me. It is a denomination with which I had no familiarity and with my midwestern Methodist upbringing...I had some difficulty with understanding just exactly what these UU folks are about. This woman wasn't always at church, but when she was, she always made it a point to speak to me after the service about the music and how much she enjoyed it. I'm about to begin my 8th year in this position and I will sorely miss her. She always had a smile for everyone. She was always reaching out in her own quiet way and she had a magnetism about her that was impossible to miss. She welcomed me and my music.

The memorial service was at the funeral home and the woman who was chaplain at the hospice led the service. It was brief, but very beautiful. I wish I had known "B" better, but I think I knew her well enough to know that I'd like to be more like her. She was truly a giver. She was quoted as having said, "the gift is in the giving." I like to think I'm like that, but sometimes I'm not sure. I try to be. I guess that counts for something good.

But I digress...not really though. I just got off the phone. That conversation took on a life of its own. I don't know how to describe it, but it was special...more so than usual. I believe my senses were heightened because of all that has happened to me over the last few weeks and the events of earlier this evening were simply the proverbial straw that broke the equally proverbial camel's back. I felt his presence next to me like never before. It's like he's looking over my shoulder as I type this. We said au revoir several minutes ago, but I can still hear him talking to me...still feel his arms around me. He said he would hold me close all night. I can feel him doing that now...and I wait and continue to count the days with a more acute awareness. I can see and feel and smell....and oh my. I hope this never goes away!

If you are strong and push through the pain and the fear, you often find that happiness is waiting for you on the other side.

rm__Reality_ 106F
67 posts
8/13/2006 7:17 am

No one knows more than I that you possess a giving and caring heart. You know i wish the very best for you and, if this is it, how wonderful!!!

rm_songbird5419 replies on 8/13/2006 12:48 pm:
You're right Reality...no one knows me better than you and no one has better wishes for me than you. *S*

rm_rover153 60M
2900 posts
8/10/2006 1:37 pm

Sounds like Cupid's arrow has flown straight and true. Good Luck Fair Maiden as a new chapter opens in your life's novel, with a tender kiss, a soft caress and a sharing of wonderful feelings.

totally worn out and screaming
"WOO HOO what a ride!" Have a wonderful day!

rm_songbird5419 replies on 8/13/2006 12:46 pm:
I don't know if it's Cupid's arrow or just serendipity, but whatever it is, I LIKE it!!!

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