live in the layers  

slightly_sexy8 39F
361 posts
12/5/2005 3:04 pm

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live in the layers


a turning point i think.
for me.
i will remember this feeling.

the layers

i have walked through many lives,
some of them my own,
and i am not who i was,
though some principle of being
abides, from which i struggle not to stray.
when i look behind,
as i am compelled to look
before i can gather strength
to proceed on my journey,
i see the milestones dwindling
toward the horizon
and the slow fires trailing
from the abandoned camp-sites,
over which scavenger angels
wheel on heavy wings.
oh, i have made myself a tribe
out of my true affections,
and my tribe is scattered!
how shall the heart be reconciled
to its feast of losses?
in the rising wind
the manic dust of my friends,
those who fell along the way,
bitterly stings my face.
yet i turn, i turn,
exulting somewhat,
with my will intact to go
wherever i need to go,
and every stone on the road
precious to me.
in my darkest night,
when the moon was covered
and i roamed through wreckage,
a nimbus-clouded voice
directed me:
"live in the layers,
not in the litter."
though i lack the art
to decipher it,
no doubt the next chapter
in my book of transformations
is already written,
i am not done with my changes.

-stanley kunitz
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.
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image - chagall, dreamer
music ‒ edie brickell, circle



rm_luke69iner 49M
3275 posts
12/11/2005 11:12 pm

I like this ... thanks for sharing it

For me layers is a lot of things ... like the multiple lives we live in a lifetime ... lives specific to jobs ... lives specific to which friends we are with ... lives with each lover ... lives with changing family ... our layers of interaction ... our silent lives inside ourself ...


S'io credesse che mia risposta fosse
A persona che mai tornasse al mondo,
Questa fiamma staria senza piu scosse.
Ma perciocche giammai di questo fondo
Non torno vivo alcun, s'i'odo il vero,
Senza tema d'infamia ti rispondo
.
~Dante~


slightly_sexy8 39F
314 posts
12/12/2005 10:02 pm

hi big girlz, just a personal situtation that i was reflecting on. i have a lot of growing to do.

and thanks luke69iner. i really like it too. i have read it many times and somehow for me its a bit like a favourite old sweater that you look for when you need a bit of comfortable.

and thanks for that mention on your blog too. i doubt many would actually enjoy it. i think most find me, or it is thinking, depressing..


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