They stood fast and firm by my side ...  

slidein2meplz 63F
1363 posts
2/5/2006 4:00 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

They stood fast and firm by my side ...

I completely fell apart at the seams this afternoon.
One minute fine..or so I thought..and the a heap of sadness/dispair/hopelessness.

Only with the support and compassion of certain Bloggers who I have come to know and love...and value their friendship, their wisdom and sense of humor did I share some of the burdens of my world....and only because I truly trust them.

They know who they are...and to them I want to say Thank You.

They stood fast and firm by my side for awhile this afternoon, while I broke down...nearly to the point of hyperventilating...and thru the miracle and wonder of the Internet offered their "cyber" shoulders and opened their hearts.

In a nutshell, the stress's of the past 4 months...which I've posted about, but not linking to and being unemployed...etc.

I haven't been sleeping much at all...and not eating properly.

I am probably about as depressed as I've maybe ever been in my life. I'm in bad shape.

So, I'm gonna take a few days to try and sleep, get into to see my doctor...because I obviously am in need of med's or something to help me climb out of this hole....I've managed to put myself in.

~~~ Just me, poppin to say HI! ~~

rm_DaphneR 59F
8023 posts
2/6/2006 7:26 am

Whether or not you need the meds remains to be seen. Let your doctor decide...that's why he went to med school and you pay him all the big bucks.

Get some 4 days worth, so your body catches up. Everything and everyone will be here waiting when you get back.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

kyplowboy22 63M

2/6/2006 9:43 am

Get some rest, ain't nothin' in front of you that can't wait a few days. Get your head cleared out and serene again. It will all be ok, promise ya kid. Later


FeistySyn 53F

2/6/2006 11:10 am

*hugs* big time for you... been there, and not too long ago, scared to go back and understand why you would be frightened being there... meds and/or sleep can help boost your energy back up, but they can also leaving you feeling more tired and lethargic sometimes... about 2 weeks ago I started taking an all natural energy boost I bought at a health food store and wow! the difference is amazing (I only take 1/3 of the recommended daily dose) ... and having more energy and being more productive in general has cheered me up a lot

Apparently the depth of depravity here is bottomless... don't you feel right at home?

tillerbabe 57F

2/6/2006 10:59 pm

You didn't contact me? WTF?????? I need to eamil you...take care of yourself hon...I mean GOOD care of you! Bubble Bath emergency! {=}

rm_saintlianna 46F
15466 posts
2/7/2006 11:15 am

After my second miscarriage I felt the same thing. I knew I needed a doctors help too and I will tell you what, it made all the difference in the world.

Btw, thank you for your concern but I am not leaving angry or upset, just back in school now and I really need to concentrate on that. I will always comment though, I CANT stop doing that, too addictive as you know. Love you.

rm_PurryKitty2 49M/51F
9753 posts
2/8/2006 5:05 pm

Big hug@

I am here if you need me and am on IM all the time if you want to talk.

Take Care,

Purry {=}


DTduzDallas 51F

2/9/2006 4:58 am

Must be something in the water. **hugs**

Babel__Fish 46F

2/11/2006 1:20 pm

breaking can be healthy.... breaking cane only show 'weakness' but can make your stronger in the long run if you let it. <==== that is the key..... if you let it and if you remember what made you feel this way and fix that thought pattern.

I know that maybe the thing that you need right now is a GREAT BIG HUG but I also know that the effects of a hug wear off in a moments time not that the hug in itself in not good but you need to realize that you are cared for and thought about.... I do not know you very well but what I have read so far makes me want to get to know you better.


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