Some Insight to me...  

skatterbrain59 59M
35 posts
4/16/2006 10:07 am

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4/25/2006 5:05 am

Some Insight to me...

I was born & raised So. Cal by Disneyland. Drugs there were ample. I got into em...Pot at first...then other stuff latter. Some of you know that my self esteem and confidence is lacking sometimes... LOL... Kinda saying how it got that way because someone asked. My Dad had a temper and a belt...He's since asked me to forgive him and I did. But I got any sense of self worth beet out of me. My recreational use pot turned into anything I could get my hands on so I didn't have to be with me...After years of dong whatever, I found this group called narcotic's anonymous...Like A/A (alcoholics anonymous) it was a 12 step program with addicts like me that made to the other side. Most are productive members of society now. I found good and caring people there as well. There about a million cliche's there, most of them hit home.

An addict alone is in bad company...
FINE: Fucked up, insecure, neurotic and emotional
so, I never say I'm FINE unless I am!
One day at a time

And about 2 dozen more that seem to apply at some given point. I'm not proud of what I did...but I'm glad I did something about it. And ive been "CLEAN" for Just shy of 20 years.
I DON'T says these thing looking for a pity party or sympathy...!!!! Just a little about what makes me tic...tic...tic LMAO!!! There's other stuff, but I'll save those for later blogs.

GoddessOfTheDawn 106F
11240 posts
4/16/2006 11:21 am

congratulations! you've come quite a long way ...

m1903a3 60M

4/16/2006 2:19 pm

HOLY CRAP! I was there, dude! My drug of choice was alcohol. I tried A.A., but found recovery in N.A. I met kitty at a meeting. Her drug of choice was every damn thing! Best man at wedding was my sponsor. This last March, I had 20 years and Kitty had 22. You are not alone. You have at least one brother here. Probably a lot more!

skatterbrain59 59M

4/16/2006 4:27 pm

Thanks Rob...And for something else I dont think you know you did. So I went back and looked at all of my blogs...Damb Im negitive!

skatterbrain59 59M

4/16/2006 4:41 pm

Tnen you know what sponsor would say If he heard me being so negitive all the time! I know the very least... I'd be doing a "Greatfull List" I had a great sponsor! Tough Love...told me I was shit that I was...full of shit!!! LOL!!! I'll be more positive! Gotta remember what I learned in thoses rooms.


4/17/2006 5:40 am

Way Cooollll! Skat! Guess ya are just keepin it simple sweetie! kiss!

just a squirrel trying to get a nut

skatterbrain59 59M

4/18/2006 11:09 am know the 12 step stuff...!

rm_goddess1946 107F
13518 posts
4/24/2006 11:03 pm

Applauding you...
one day at a time

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

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