shychurchmouse 51F
418 posts
9/28/2005 5:33 am

Last Read:
5/21/2012 11:31 pm


EXPLAINATION: After months, I finally had a civilazed conversation with my exhusband. There was no screaming or blaming.

Today I did not cry for you. I have already cried an ocean.

Today I did not feel anger for you. I have felt enough anger to fuel ten thousand wars.

Today I did not feel shame. I have hung my head in shame for years.

Today I did not feel jealous. I have had enough jealousy to hate every woman in the world.

Today I did not feel pity for you. That was why I took you back so many times.

Today I did not feel lust for you. I think I miss that the most.

Today I looked into your children eyes and felt how much I love them. How could I not love you for giving that to me?

Today I realized I would always love you, but only at a distance.

smackyman 47M
3849 posts
9/28/2005 11:45 pm

Today you made it out the other side of your troubles. Good for you shychurchmouse!*HUG*

shychurchmouse 51F
239 posts
9/29/2005 12:26 am

smacky thanks actually he was the one yelling for months. He finally decided we didn't need to be enemies. Thanks for reading already trying to decide what to write about next.

19 posts
10/26/2005 7:32 am


I like what you wrote,and know the journeys you've been on and the ocean you've cried...Am glad to see it in writting,just keep that chin up,and keep going....As for the love of my nephews,how could you not love them as muchas you do,they look just like their Auntie...Love ya lilsis....xoxoxox

shychurchmouse 51F
239 posts
11/1/2005 6:19 pm

Sis boy am I slow or what? I didn't see this until today. You might not want to read the demons one. Thanks for being there when I need you. Love to you and yours see you soon. Mouse

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