One Man, One Dream, One Hundred Kilograms  

shirokuma1976 41M
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8/14/2005 7:23 am

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One Man, One Dream, One Hundred Kilograms

Hello all!

I am a 29 year old American guy living in Kyoto, Japan. I guess I should feel grateful to be where I am, especially because living in Japan has been one of my greatest dreams since childhood. I have made it here, and I certainly feel some sense of accomplishment because of that, but I have yet to truly "arrive," which is one of those creative English euphemisms that means "succeed." I have yet to succeed on the employment front, which is understandable because I refuse to succumb to the low-paying, dead-end hell of English instruction. I interview for "real jobs" periodically, and I hope I get some action soon.

I would also enjoy getting some sexual action (why the hell else would I even be on this site?), but the site's highly unfavorable male:female ratio and my body type have ensured that this type of success is also out of my reach. After sending nearly 30 messages to different individuals and getting exactly NOWHERE, I came to realize that I have two options open to me. Option one is to delete my account and give up, and in so doing subconsciously acknowledge that I am a supreme loser. Option two, which is the one I chose, is to totally overhaul my physical form through diet and exhausting amounts of exercise.

I started my master plan about 2 1/2 weeks ago, and my new self is already starting to take shape. I still weigh about 100 kg, which was my baseline weight, but I can tell that my fat mass is declining and my muscle mass is increasing. I figure that it will take somewhere between 4 and 6 months to reach my goal, and I WILL reach it.

It's not easy being a fat guy, especially in Japan, where the ideal body image becomes invisible when viewed from the side. Girls can usually get away with being on the heavy side, even in Japan, as there are plenty of guys who appreciate counterparts of generous proportions. I have yet to meet ANY females, however, who have a thing for heavy guys, and that is a double standard that has been my enemy for more years than I can count.

Knowing that I can never overcome the double standard, I have decided to achieve the "accepted" image and put an end to all of the problems. After all, it'll be good for my health anyway, right?

Numerous updates on my progress will follow. Stay tuned!

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