thinking too much tonight  

sharewus2 41M/33F
415 posts
6/4/2006 12:05 am

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6/8/2006 3:38 am

thinking too much tonight


i've re-read my blog, and to tell you the truth, i had a good giggle over it. to think anyone would read this. what's happened to me? i used to fancy myself a writer of some sorts. not one to use conventional sentence structure and not even great or anything, and i'm sure i never will be. but once upon a time i thought what i wrote was worth reading. now? i'm not so sure.

i think the problem is that i'm afraid to delve too deeply. afraid to give away parts of myself i could never get back. afraid to offend. especially considering i don't know my audience. i dont know how they'll react. how they'll view me after. there are certain emotions i do my best to avoid with others. emotions that tend to surface whenever i become too honest or too open. emotions that have caused me a great many problems in my life. i have no room in my life for pity. its useless to me.

fear does funny things to you. i dont write the way i used to, sprawled on the floor whipping out page after page of thoughts that would probably sound ubsurd to anyone else. this is my sole outlet these days. i dont write for myslef anymore, and yet, i'm too afraid to write the things i need to here. one of these days perhaps i'll sit down and write as if no one will read it. what a strange shock that would be.

new2here05 51M

6/5/2006 12:12 pm

Share -
It's your blog... your comments on life... not ours - so what what you feel. If we don't agree - then that is our problem.

Cheers.


rm_agathon12 47M
1311 posts
6/5/2006 9:00 pm

Write for you, as if it were a journal of sorts. Don't worry about the audience because that's really the best use of a blog. It's not meant to be polished. If something you say grabs your attention and you want to explore it offline, keep a little journal for yourself. Woolf wrote in her journal everyday so there's no reason not to if you aspire to write in general. T.Mann wrote 3 pages every day and just look at all of the stuff he published!


EvilEvilKitten1 63F

6/8/2006 2:20 am

sweety - no guts = no glory! I'd say GO FOR IT!!!!

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