Party, Fuck & Fight  

sexywhiteboy07 47M
106 posts
5/2/2006 10:40 am

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10/3/2012 2:17 pm

Party, Fuck & Fight

This was so wierd.
Last night I found my original log book from last year. I opened it and went to what was happening a year ago, that day. It was so wild all of the crazy stuff that I read, it seems like a dream now. That is good, it shows that we are finally getting past it.
We had just got out tax check, and I went to Fry's and bought some computer/audio stuff. Sam said she found some uknowhat in the bathroom (lie)and we partied. Then the next day, she said Phoebe gave her some (bigger lie). 2 days later she would be in rehab, then a threesome with Erica. I was so naiive at the time, but it is so obvious now. Even at this point, I didn't know how deep she was in ... how much money, how many lies, credit cards, the whole thing.
We would party, fuck and fight. Though some of it was fun, I am happy that it is all over now.
We talked about the whole thing this weekend, both wishing that we could just party occaisionally and then just let it go. But we both know it can never be that way.
I mainly miss the kind. I wanted to have a smoke so bad on Saturday night, but couldn't.

SweetDarlinAngel 41F
2996 posts
5/2/2006 3:52 pm

Good luck ... with everything, the craving, the continuing fight to regain normalcy, just all over prayers for you ...


sexywhiteboy07 47M

5/3/2006 10:05 am

Thanks all. Always appreciated. Had to give up smoking kind, Never smoked cigs.

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