People and Thier Feelings  

sexymusica 32F
47 posts
7/3/2006 10:25 pm

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7/12/2006 5:55 pm

People and Thier Feelings

I'm feeling very sick right now. There are too many girls out there who are much better looking than I am. I mean just look at the profiles fellas.
I'm just another one in the mix. My boobs are too big, like a D cup. I'm not a size zero. I'm not a slut that everyone's looking for. Sometimes I even wonder what i'm even doing here. why i do i feel this way. i've been turned down for not being slutty enough.
And then there are A**H*** men who, pressure me into telling them how i really feel, and then they hold it against me. SO WHAT IF I WANT A RELATIONSHIP ONE DAY? IS YOUR EGO SO BIG THAT YOU THINK I'D ACTUALLY BE INTERESTED IN YOU? TO BE HONEST I THINK YOU LOOK LIKE A DUCK!!!
LOL, sorry. just a little something thats been trapped in my head about a certain young man for weeks. He'll probably just find some way to pin that back on me too, its not my fault he looks like a duck.
But anyway, and then theres the man who gives me the all or nothing ultimatin. "You are on AdultFriendFinder to ****, not take things slow." He says, or they say. Even if people apologize for saying that it still hurts. Because now I'm not even good enough for AdultFriendFinder!
I dont have birth control pills, or the sexy patch on my non existant size 2 body. I'm not a blonde, redhead, or even a brunette. because black women arent separated like that they're all just Black.
I havent posed for sexy pics in a dorm room, I take my own. And then guys even get sick of those, now they want a cam. There's no pleasing these people!
I'm so frustrated, I have a headache. There's nobody here to hold me or kiss me or hug me.
The one i want is not always available and when he is, I forget everything that bothers me and I can only think about him for the brief period that we talk. And when he's around I dont need AdultFriendFinder because he makes me feel sexy.
I have no idea if he feels the same way about me, I'm not ready to talk to him about that right now, I can only hope.
Maybe I'm just using this site to fill that emptiness inside me.
But its like eating too much. You eat and eat and eat to try to fill up but theres still something that makes you want to keep eating. And if you go overboard, you vomit. But then eventually you go right back to the cycle all over again.
Yet I'm Still Here

playtime44uandi 54M
6545 posts
7/4/2006 6:28 pm

Oh sweetheart,

First of all you are a very attractive young lady! second of all if you are looking for a relationship, then look for that. there is nothing wrong with that. I know lots of poeple here that are looking for relationships, friends Or just to blog. Dont let anyone tell you what you want. only you know what you want & if they arent looking for the same thing you are then move on. there are tons of guys on here & if one really wants to be with you He will take things at a speed that is comfortable for you too.

Have you ever checke out the groups section on here?
There is a group that I'm a member of that is really fun & its not apressure pot for sex. Its "looking for friendships"
Check it out some time. There are poeple there that are cool & that want more then just sex. Just a sugestion.

Keep your head up. Were all using this site to fill one emptyness or other.

By the way. (((((hug))))))

~We'll Leave The Light On~

rm_KarmoHunny 56F
888 posts
7/5/2006 7:07 pm

There is nothing wrong with you! You are a beautiful young woman! Don't let people pressure you into doing things you don't want to do. I agree with playtime44uandi. Go at your own pace and do what YOU need to do. Not someone else.

Hugs Sweetie!

rm_stuman64 54M

7/9/2006 7:02 pm

STAND BY YOUR CONVICTIONS!! Like karmo honey said don't let anyone pressure you into anything. I feel that you are attractive and keep an open mind. One thing that I will tell you is do not get you expectations up too high when a guy replies to you. In the end you will continue to be hurt and let down. I know from experience.
If i ran into you right now i would give you a big hug. Stick with it. stuman64

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