not myself  

sexloverocknroll 58M
282 posts
5/2/2006 7:15 pm

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5/4/2006 5:31 am

not myself


The past 3 or so weeks, I have not been myself. I seem to be overly sensitive to everything. I went to some horror movie with my son a few weeks ago. It creped me out. I felt so bad, so dirty, so, well, it should right? Seeing a 8 year old girl getting and burned alive should upset people, right? Yet, it does not, not to most of us, not usually. We are desensitized to it, right? I have been sleeping a lot. Taking lots of long naps, but when I wake up, I feel worse. I feel like I have not gotten any sleep at all. All day long I am walking around with no energy, my thoughts scattered and on the verge of breaking down in tears. When I eat, I feel like I am going to puke.

Today, one of my clients snapped. He just instantly turned on me, throw a wet scrubber pad in my face, and wanted to throw down with me. He has never came any where near acting like this before. I do a job shadow with him at our animal shelter. They are having a huge issue with a serious illness with the dogs. They are having to euthanize all them tomorrow. I am just sick about it! I want to be angry at all the idiot irresponsible pet owners and the dam tree hugging do-gooders how whine and yet never donate a dime of their money or volunteer a second of their time to help out. I just want to cry. Then, my next client gave me a hard time, would not comply, drank 4 beers in out 2 hours, and then asked me to give him a ride to some chicks house so he can get laid. So why does this jerk get sex and not me? Becuase I am too nice? Becuase I have a bad title on my blog? Then, I asked this girl out Friday. It took me 2 weeks to get up the never and to have a chance to ask her. She said yes. I was so damn happy and thinking positive. I did not get her number becuase we were too busy, but she has mine. She did not call like she said she would and she quit Sunday.

So, I am very sorry for hurting anyone’s feelings. I am sorry for taking things wrong.

angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
5/2/2006 8:00 pm

Sexloverocknroll....there is nothing wrong with your handle. It sounds like life has been kicking you a little while you are down. It happens to everyone once in awhile. One thing I have been learning is that we are responsible only for the way we handle our feelings and trials. If these feelings don't seem to be diminishing....seek some help. Depression is a very real and valid ailment....and is nothing to be ashamed about. I think that almost everyone could use some anti depressants and counseling once in awhile. This world we live in is a little overwhelming at times for us all.


sexloverocknroll replies on 5/3/2006 6:25 am:
You have made some very good points. Tank you for your comments.

catseyes23 62F

5/3/2006 10:06 am

Sheesh, Sexy. You have been having a hard time. Being out of England for so long, it is easy to forget some words... so much so that I am embarrassed to ask, "What is a Shadow job?"

I love animals and cannot understand the people who buy them as cute little pets turn them over to the humane society because they have outgrgrown their "cuteness" shall we say. For the rest of your blog, I just cannot commentate. I don't know what to say to build your ego, the only thing I can say is, "Have trust in yourself and others will follow."


Cats...


sexloverocknroll replies on 5/3/2006 1:17 pm:
"Job shadow" is a term used in my career field. I work with disabled people. I go with them to their work and assist them in order for them to maintain independence.

Your coming here is enough for me. You cuase me to feel much better about not just myself, but life. Thank you, my Lady!

rm_metalmama69 43F
3878 posts
5/3/2006 4:15 pm

(((Hot, sexy hugs)))


sexloverocknroll replies on 5/3/2006 5:19 pm:
mmmmm, thanks!!!!

catseyes23 62F

5/4/2006 1:46 am

"Job shadow" is a term used in my career field. I work with disabled people. I go with them to their work and assist them in order for them to maintain independence.

Your coming here is enough for me. You cuase me to feel much better about not just myself, but life. Thank you, my Lady!"


Thank you for the explanation.(((Hugs)))

Cats...


sexloverocknroll replies on 5/4/2006 5:32 am:
Anything for you, My Lady.

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