Standing... Watching... Wondering  

rm_unlistedone 66M
3832 posts
5/22/2006 7:24 am

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Standing... Watching... Wondering

Standing... Watching... Wondering

I stood
there looking
at the last place
I saw you.
The memory is still clear
and strong within me.

You had your back to me
busy with other things,
so you couldn't see me...
you couldn't have known
I was there.

I remember the last conversation...
the one where you weren't sure.
But I saw in your eyes
the same thing that's in mine...
and I understand.

Our looks and wants
and needs... and the very thought
of this keeps
us circling.
Walking around each other,
leaving momentarily...
then coming back.
Our minds linger
on the what could be...
and our thoughts
fight each conflicting thought
that tells us "no."

"I'm not sure..."
the echo of the words
cascading through my head.
Neither am I.

A part of me says
run away from this...
don't let this go any further.
Another part keeps
me here...
refusing to want this to be safe.

We both have travelled
too many miles
laughed at the wrong things,
smiled at too many
wrong faces...
and dreamed of being
where we are now.

Your eyes say
what I feel inside.
You touch lingers
far longer than it should.
Our measured thoughts
betray us to us.

So, I stood there,
looking at the spot
where I last watched you...
and I wondered.

© copyright unlistedone 2006

angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
5/22/2006 12:41 pm

Oh my! This is just beautiful. I can almost see the two people standing there wondering these things in their minds! It's hard....isn't it my special friend? It's hard. 143


5/22/2006 4:05 pm

Beautiful... I see I have some reading to catch up on

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat

pairdds 54M/53F

5/22/2006 6:01 pm

Wow, thankyou, that was really what i needed tonight, recently broke up with my lover of a year, and i can still feel him. Feelings complicate the swinging and playing lifestyle, and now i am broken hearted.

HBowt2 60F

5/23/2006 2:08 am

I'm standing here looking at my marriage ...watching and wondering...feeling echoes of what it was and could have been.....

VATraveler1948 69M

5/23/2006 4:03 am

Powerful imagery my friend! I can see the scene clearly in my mind.

Juliet610 52F

5/29/2006 2:04 am

I've been away for a while--and I see I have missed much! I read this entry over half an hour ago, and I still have a lump in my throat. With your permission, I would like to share this with a very dear friend, whom you could have been writng about. She needs to read this, as does her significant other. Bless you for capturing such strong emotions so perfectly.


rm_unlistedone 66M
2718 posts
5/31/2006 11:47 pm

Yes, it is hard, sometimes... especially if you are being totally honest with the other person, and totally honest with yourself. New relationships, even old, can be this way. hug, me

playrigal...thank you. I'm glad this caused you to bring up something from your past memory. Stop by anytime! unlisted.

muff... thanks for stopping in. Take your time... I'm not going anywhere.

Sometimes feelings, when you really are just looking for a physical relationship can get in the way. Then, you have to deal with them. I've always found it hard to keep my emotions out of anything I do. It isn't an easy thing. I probably wouldn't be extremely good at a "friends with benefits" type relationship. I know the how to's... it's just I become more interested in what's in my partner's mind than just their body. Thanks for stopping in... hug, me

We know each other well enough, I know exactly what you mean. 143, pal

Me, too. I've been watching and wondering probably exactly the same thing you have for a very long time. Actually, at one point, I gave my marriage a certain amount of time to improve or not, and a time to end it if it didn't. (Truth is, that time is almost here... and there aren't any improvements.) Sad really... I would hate to lose the "friend" that I have in my marriage... but I feel I lost my lover in my marriage many years ago. I still try though. Thanks for this thought... hope yours works better for you. Keep trying, hug, me

Va... thank you, sir. I'm glad you see it. I try to capture my poems with mind pictures. I want the reader to "see" it.

First, I'm thrilled to see you back. (That alone, gives me a "warm" feeling.)

I remember sharing poems written by Rod McKuen,(For more of his, try looking in "A Safe Place to Land"... not here... on the net. You'll really enjoy it... trust me.) and thinking... "How does this guy know exactly what I'm thinking? It is a true compliment to me, to have someone want to share one of my poems with another.

Thank you... and welcome back. You were missed... a lot. hug, me

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