Zero Plus Zero...  

rm_tuttle 44M
106 posts
8/4/2006 12:31 pm

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9/8/2010 6:21 am

Zero Plus Zero...

She leant against the wall at a safe distance.

"Why do you hit me?" She cried, defeated.
"Why don't you leave?" He responded.
"Because I love you!"
"What kind of person loves someone who hits them?" He snorted with forced indignation.
Her voiced raised, "Hey, don't lay this one on me! Like I said, you gotta tell me why you hit me."
"Because I love you. It's difficult. I can't explain."
She cracked, "What kind of a bastard hits someone they love?"
His gaze fell downwards, "Like I said, I can't explain."

They've been like this for years, going over the same old ground without understanding its texture. They never realise the fucked up symmetry of a person who loves being hit falling for a man who hits people he loves. The inexplicable patterns of our life create these impossible sums, where zero plus zero sometimes equals one.

One day she will leave. One day he will look for another zero to compliment his own.

rm_Ellenback 59F
966 posts
8/4/2006 1:07 pm

Exactly...we all look for someone to fill the holes in our souls, figuratively AND physically. Co-dependents seek out, by being vulnerable and martyring themselves, the addicts, who, in turn, seek out their negative equals. We all try to fix/change one another's faults, but it is those flaws that we actively sought out initially.

Yin and Yang, is it not? (Side it Ying or Yin? LO



rm_tuttle 44M
75 posts
8/4/2006 1:19 pm

Hi Ellen,

Wise words indeed.... and it's "Yin". "Ying" runs the Chinese Takewaway on New Malden high street!!

2daycowboywanted 46F

8/4/2006 1:20 pm

And yet another reason not to fall in love.

Until later

rm_Ellenback 59F
966 posts
8/5/2006 9:07 am

LOL 2daycowboywanted, that's NOT a reason to NOT fall in's a reason to examine people outside of the 'love circle' you're in, view them dispassionately first, with an eye to where your triggers are, and wonder to yourself exactly what it is about this person that makes you want to be with them. If you can do that, and still want to be with them, then the union has my blessing.

Sorry, Tuttle, didn't mean to kidnap ya, the MOM MODE kicked in...



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