Time is but the stream I go a-fishing in  

rm_torilink 52F
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12/13/2005 12:07 am

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Time is but the stream I go a-fishing in

Time.... been having trouble with time lately.

Just turned 40, and although I am not a vain person, it hurt. I certainly don't feel that old, time hasn't really taken its toll on me yet -and I'm hangin in there ok physically, but every now and again when I look in the mirror I can see the subtle differences a few years can make.

Of course If I'd sleep more, that might help.

Been thinking a lot about sex. Not so much the lack of sex - there is that, but future sexual encounters. I've been really learning about manifesting, trying to work it and I think sex is the best place to really try it out on.

For those who don't know what manifesting desire is..., it is very much like some religions believe that you can ask and it is given. Now, of course in Christianity they call it prayer and in Wicca a Spell - but I believe that God is Energy & Vibration, and prayer and spells are requests for certain energy....

anyhow - this is the theory of manifesting desire as I grasp it. I have had some successes thus far in some areas of my life...

1. We are all here in this realm to desire
2. Desire is the basis of creation
3. When we ask that a desire be fulfilled, our request is granted the moment we ask
4. Our requests are fulfilled only if we are in a state of Receiving. This is the tough part. Receiving mode....hmmm not a selfish wanting, or a tantrum demanding.... a relaxed allowing.

The reason for this aparently is that the universe hits us back with exactly the same energy we send forth. So, if we are in a state of need - we get back neediness. If we are sending out vibrations in a frequency of selfishness and wanting - we will continue wanting and our needs go unmet. When we our ill tempered and demanding - the universe demands of us - in an ill tempered way -

5. accepting the fact that our desires/wishes have been heard and requests granted.
6. Visualizing and believing the end experience - this is Faith I believe.

so this is the process...

back to sex

trying to manifest some sexual pleasure, physical release, and human intimacy, preferably with a fully functioning adult male with whom I'm intensely or even sinfully attracted.

I'm begining to visualize a little too much and have really been thinking about it constantly. I have talked to a few men online since moving but haven't "Hooked Up" yet.

Not sure which way to head with the visualization. Younger, older, very attractive, quirkily attractive, heavy, slim, tall,

oh hell - at this point, just someone I can have a normal conversation with that delves deeper than who's fault something is would really be the primary prerequisite. lol

so, I'm going to try to start the visualizing on the blog here and see what I can manifest for myself...


290bowler 74M
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12/13/2005 7:20 am

Very interesting blog......I can climb aboard and visualize right along side of you here. You say so much, yet use so few words, it's incredible. You'd be a good one to get to know, I like the way you can see beyond today, feel beyond the sensation of touch, know beyond the words of a book.

horsey6964 53M
1 post
12/14/2005 4:32 am

VERY AWESOME - its like you scraped up a condensed version of life here. I LIKE IT

rm_letsride0 61M
1 post
12/21/2005 9:20 am

Don't send any negetive vibes towards the age thing. Worry is in itself a non productive, consuming thought process that can take over and keep the flame to a flicker. Aging is a beautiful process, growing up and letting the flame go out is by choice. You decide and persue!

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