sad day  

rm_throbbin64 54M
9 posts
7/30/2006 5:15 am

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1/26/2007 6:26 pm

sad day

Just sitting; thinking; wonderin' what went wrong.
Been down here in Florida a little over four months. Two more until I head back home. Maybe.
Been trying to continue a long distance relationship on over the phone. Seems that its all falling apart this past week. Not sure exactly what's going on. She says one thing, but I'm starting to think it's something else entirely. I have trust issues. You get them after walking in on your wife in bed with another man.

Joined this site, not really to find a temporary replacement, although I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't take the opportunity if it presented itself. But more as entertainment to fill my nights, alone. Started checking out these blogs, as they represent people's real feelings, not just mindless trivialities I could find on TV. I've been drawn into peolple; strangers sharing their lives in writing. Thank you for turning me on to this.

So today it's my turn. No poetry. No pics. Just the deep sense of loss. The pain that comes with having exposed your heart to someone, and having them turn their head and walk away. Life sucks sometimes.

VCF1962 106F

7/30/2006 8:07 am

I am so with you on that one Throbbin. Happened to me these past couple of days - although partly of my own choice - he said he was separated but in the end, turns out he wasn't and isn't ready to be and I'm not prepared to be the cake he eats when he wants me.

The main thing is that you tried to keep the flame alive and trust is something, like respect, that is earned and needs to keep on being earned.

Life surely does suck (in my case, given the opportunity anyway !) but there's usually something better round the corner.

Try and keep smiling (it'll make people wonder what you're up to if nothing else !!).

Mistress Innuendo
Taking what you say and turning it into something naughty !!

rm_throbbin64 54M
15 posts
7/30/2006 1:14 pm

Thanks for sharing VC and for your words of wisdom. Time is the only healer of wounds. I'll be okay, and you will too. Just seems like that corner is a long way off today.

rm_dzign4me 49F

8/2/2006 6:07 pm

hi throbbin
I have been there very recently...even left AdultFriendFinder and now back...wondered why i was the one running away....and is it me that isnt happy...or was i the one compromising?? Hard to say....i feel for you...i know the pain and the seemingly pointlessness of it all...chin up baby...
Someone wonderful will come along and make it all worthwhile...

rm_throbbin64 54M
15 posts
8/2/2006 7:08 pm

Thanks for the encouragement D. I know this happens all the time, and to all sorts of people. Time is the only true cure. The pain subsides as we go on living, and eventually returns to joy; whether with your lover or someone completely new. Keep on keeping on.


8/3/2006 10:39 pm

Kinda nice to see someone really talk about his or her feelings so open in a place like this...I do understand your pain as well as I think all have been there once or twice in our lives…instinct is a funny thing ya know…….But this place does have some awesome people and incredible writers also…………I hope things work out for you soon………Which I’m sure it’s just a matter of time…….just be as open and honest as you are with your words here and you’ll find what you’re looking for.

rm_throbbin64 54M
15 posts
8/4/2006 5:11 pm

Thanks Sun,
Have always believed you have nothing without honesty. Sharing my true feelings, if only in writing, did make me feel better. Really liked your "Touch".


8/9/2006 5:16 pm

ty I'm glad u enjoyed it

rm_dzign4me 49F

8/27/2006 7:57 am the same boat as you...
life sure deals out some pain to us doesnt it? Im finding the hard part is trying to put it behind and move on...but its constantly on my mind...unfortuneately.
Have sworn off relationships for awhile...this one just left too big of an imprint to erase so easily.
hope that you find something to fufill and erase it...time is the healer of all wounds im told

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