just when...  

rm_sweetone244 57F
583 posts
6/13/2006 11:57 pm

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7/17/2006 1:17 am

just when...

I get comfy, then I freak myself out. Then I rationalize and settle back down, till I read something wrong out of a simple statement - and get all weird again.

So I've been "calmed" again. Yes - I know, things are different now. I've always kept things inside, supposedly to keep the peace, to keep myself from getting hurt. Kept them inside till I would just explode. I remember that last explosion - I got so pissed I threw a whole armload of panties at my then husband. Yes, I said panties. (ouch - I know).

But things are different now. This is not my ex I'm dealing with. There's actual understanding, concern and compassion. (How the hell I got this lucky, I'll never know.)

So, I'm struggling to change behaviors ... yes, kinda hard for a 40-sumthin' woman to do. But I have help. I won't keep questions and concerns inside till I just explode.

And panty throwing won't happen unless its purely for fun.

absolutelynormal 57F
6563 posts
6/29/2006 9:41 pm

I didn't realize I haven't been here in so long, so I'm getting caught up on your blog. Sounds like this guy is a keeper Mac

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