Insecurities  

rm_sweetone244 57F
583 posts
3/14/2006 5:28 am

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3/3/2007 8:12 pm

Insecurities


what makes me feel so insecure some days?

I've raised two incredible kids who I've watched grow up into incredible adults...
I am a successful woman, with great job, doing what I love
I am intelligent
I am attractive
I am a great lover
I have a great sense of humor

but yet, there are days when my insecurities eat me up..

Maybe its because I'm a perfectionist when it comes to myself. Not as much to others - I'm very forgiving. Too forgiving possibly.

Maybe its because my ex gave me a complex - never happy with what we had, or how I was. 20 plus years of that is hard to shake.

I want to be happy with myself, happy and relaxed. Mabe therapy - and lots of it. Or maybe I just learn to deal with it.

I look at my ex and his 2nd ex - I realize I'm not the crazy one.
I look at my job situation - just when I'm ready to throw in the towel, good things start to happen and I'm rewarded for all the hard work I have been putting in.
I look at my kids - I miss them dearly, but I see how they are learning to grow and actually thrive on their own - I'm proud.

And I look at one special friend, who has taught me that I truly am all the good things I know I am - and that others see that in me as well.

maybe I'm ok after all

blogginOnly 60F

3/14/2006 6:09 am

Hon, you are more than OK. There is good in everyone. Some, you just have to look deeper, lol. Its funny how others see us differently than we view ourselves. We need to give ourselves more credit nowadays. So much is going on, time is going by so fast. We need to just learn to let up on ourselves and RELAX. Good things come to those who wait, lol.


HeardLankaMalls 56M
2925 posts
3/14/2006 6:33 am

It sounds like you are Sweet

We all have our doubts and insecurities. But, when you look at things as you did, you see how things have progressed. Events in our lives might not all be roses, but alot still do come up flowers with some work.

Hugs, C


iluvjbsinaz 56M

3/14/2006 6:52 am

"I cut down trees,
I skip and jump,
I look to press wildflowers.

I dress in women's clothing
and hang around in bars!"

If the singer of that little tune isn't insecure, you shouldn't be, either. Besides, that special friend sounds very wise.


runzwithknives 61F

9/24/2006 6:58 am

This tugged at my soul...
there are days when my insecurities eat me up..
Maybe its because I'm a perfectionist when it comes to myself. Not as much to others - I'm very forgiving. Too forgiving possibly.

Welcome to my world. As woman are we raised to be this way? Stuck in a society that praises our power to be sexual, sensual women in bed, berates us for using it (slut) and for our reproduction ability> And at the same time places little worth on our abilities; caretakers, nurterers, capable, strong in body, mind and spirit, and intelligence?

You are more than ok. Love your blog. Hugs, Rosa


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