Feelings from the heart  

rm_sweetjoule 48
32 posts
6/14/2006 6:01 am

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10/16/2007 10:37 pm

Feelings from the heart

I do not like mornings anymore. There will be sometime before you can make the chest stop feeling so heavy. Its like someone is sitting on you and you just can not get your breath it hurts and feels so tight you just want it to stop but, you know it wil be a lil bit befoe you can get enough drinks in you so that your mind is lieing to your heart and you think of nothing. Then you walk in to the world and that feeling hits you again so you want to hide have more hoping it will make it go away so you can carry on. You find yourself walking in a dream world you do the things you have to then it hits you again your standing there talking to someone and you find yourself talking about him or his kids and something you think they would have liked to do. See cause your not only loosing him but his kids too. You seen them almost as much. When you were playing with her you knew it was the last time you would see her.

rm_rob21970 47M
13 posts
6/14/2006 7:10 am

Hi, it reads like you have been throug the ringer quite honestly I have been there and done that you seem like a sensitve and careing woman, who has had the unfortunate luck of getting her heart beaten down. For the fool that did this you should be shamed of yourself as for you time will help it get easer but will not go away. What dose not kill dose however make us stronger for it!!!

Love ya and hang in there


angelofmercy5 60F
17881 posts
6/14/2006 7:22 am

I'm sorry you are going through this. ~hugs~

rm_sweetjoule 48
10 posts
6/14/2006 7:27 pm

Thank you and yes I am hurt very bad. I was Lied to and cheated on. Now I am tring to pick up my broken heart and see what I am going to do. I moved 4 hrs from where I lived to be with him. Anyway thank you for your words of kindness.

rm_halftrack3 77M
2 posts
7/19/2006 12:00 pm

you need to have agood time,and put the past behind you.keep smilin

dale4688 65M
4 posts
7/26/2006 4:49 pm

hi sweet first time i've been on you blog hope things are picking up for you i've been in the same situation myself and it's never fun i'm new to tulsa myself having just moved here from tn. ur a sweetheart take care it can only get better. by the way love your jokes.

rm_rob21970 47M
13 posts
8/14/2006 6:10 pm

Thank you and read my response to what you said I think you will enjoy.

Later love your awsome!!!!

sneakysnake68 49M
8 posts
9/11/2006 8:43 pm

Sweet, I didn't really read this post the first time I viewed your blog. I really got a kick out of the jokes, and I hope you didn't think that I meant this one too. I can relate to what you what you said in this post. I still get phone calls from my ex-girlfriends 10 year old daughter even after calling it quits almost 2 years ago. It still gets me every time she calls, and also every time my daughter asks if we can go over there to see them. My ex's daughter keeps calling and asking if her mom and I are ever going to get back together and I just don't know how to tell her that there is no chance of that. I love her like she was my own daughter, but her mom and I just don't see things the same way. You know, sometimes you just want to try and make things work for the kids sake, but you know deep down that it would only be a mistake. The best thing is to try and put it behind you no matter how much it hurts.

Scott_in_Tulsa 46M
1328 posts
9/21/2006 9:49 pm

There's not a whole lot of advice i can offer you aside from tired old cliches like "time heals all wounds" and "the sun comes up tomorrow"

however, the neat thing about tired old cliches is they get to be that way by having a certain amount of validity to them

breakups are tough, losing one's family due to a breakup is double tough, and then you have to throw in whatever it was he did to cause the relationship to end, and it gets to the point of being almost unbearable (as evidenced by this post)

so since all i can offer are my sympathies and tired cliches, here's one more "this too shall pass"

stay strong


"We are all worms, but i like to think of myself as a glow-worm" - Winston Churchill

rm_sweetjoule 48
10 posts
9/23/2006 10:57 am

Thank you all for your words of sympathies. Have a great day Sweet

rm_rob21970 47M
13 posts
3/31/2007 4:08 pm

You gave me reply a long time ago and I have been busy working, working too hard. In any event hope all is well with you and yours. Drop me a line anytime. ((

Love ya rob

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