Where's the Prozac?  

rm_sapphire71 46F
107 posts
3/6/2005 3:31 pm

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Where's the Prozac?

Today has not been a happy day. Met up with a friend mine, whom is also close friends with the man I'm trying to get over. Of course the conversation ended up about him....which stirred up all kinds of emotions. Sadness, anger, loneliness....etc. It's been almost a year since we "ended" if you can call it that, and it still hurts like it happened yesterday.

Then I got word from one of my best friends that she has to put her dog to sleep tonight. Ooohhh how upsetting that is. I'm an animal lover, and I've been thru that pain. So I ended up crying on the phone with her for a 1/2 hour.

Sometimes I feel so weak. Others can be so strong, and nothing affects them. Me, everything affects me. They say...what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Well....I'm not feeling it yet.

So...now my mood is down in the dumps for the rest of the evening.


SigEp4U 44M

3/7/2005 12:21 pm

I don't by that whole thing about others being strong... I think it has more to do with the fact that some poeple have become experts at hiding and bottling up how they really feel.

They learn how to ignore it... that's all. That line about what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger... I've been using that too... hope it's true.

Hope today goes a lot better for you...


rm_sapphire71 46F
53 posts
3/8/2005 7:38 am

Thanks Sig.....hope your days are going better as well.

radlam 54M

3/11/2005 3:04 pm

Just go back into town tonight. Sorry your bummed.

Hey look. People are always saying mean things to me. My boss and all the morons I have to put up with at the places I go to do biomed service. I deal with real negative assholes everyday.

Plus all the women that routinely reject me in a not nice way. I wish someone would be nice to me every now and then, but that ain't going to ever happen.

A woman can cry and let out her emotions. That's OK.

As A man, I really can't show that kind of weakness. I have to put up a facade like nothing will bother me. I just take the pain and roll on. That's my life everyday. It's just the environment to have to deal with.

You will build inner strength if you are in a situation that requires it. I hurt a lot but I don't show it to others. I can't afford to.

SigEp4U 44M

3/16/2005 5:39 am

sapphire... how are you doing? Haven't seen much out of ya lately and was just concerned.

Hope your just busy and everything is going well...


rm_sapphire71 46F
53 posts
3/17/2005 7:45 am

I'm here Sig. I haven't had anything exciting to write about. I've been faithfully reading your blogs though. I've also been busy at home remodeling my kitchen. Keeps my mind off other things.

I hope you are doing well, and thanks for checking up on me.

rm_heyjay4two0 46M
56 posts
3/17/2005 1:14 pm

I'm glad to see your back.Even when you are gone people are thinking of you.
I just could not reply on the Sanchez post.(yuck)

SigEp4U 44M

3/17/2005 8:04 pm

sapphire... good I was getting ready to call out the search and rescue team. Too bad I don't live closer I would come over one evening and help ya with your kitchen.

Take it easy...

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