Let Me Out!  

rm_sakrilej 42M
200 posts
6/12/2006 2:20 am

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6/21/2006 3:11 am

Let Me Out!

As some of you know, a while back I stopped drinking. I lasted 3 months and became more of a recluse than I ever was. I got really fuckin' bored too, here in this little town where nothing happens and no one who could help (anyone with money) gives a fuck about helping the underground music scene. All my friends are drinkers, I just couldn't last.

The money I have each week is in the tens of dollars, when everything required to take steps in the music business costs hundreds to thousands and ideally tens to hundreds of thousands. Many talented people here, hold day jobs so they can afford the equipment but they have no time to hone their skills, their playing suffers. In contrast, I spend all my time on music and get nowhere because I haven't the money to take the steps forward.

Yes, my album's pretty much done (besides mastering & printing for which I have to borrow money) but even when it's completely finished, printing the pitiful amounts of copies that I can afford out of my own pocket, seems a pointless plight, many (especially older) cd players won't recognise burned discs and who am I really printing them for? I need to sell every copy just to break even, so I can't exactly send them away to record labels.

I'm sick of it and so frustrated and despondent I remain very depressed much of the time. No wonder I can't keep a girlfriend, so much so, I don't even look any more. Now winter is well and truly here, No wheels, I don't go anywhere. Fuck all of this! Why am I even alive?

PrincessKarma 44F
6188 posts
6/12/2006 8:00 am

*HUG* Hang on, buddy... there's people here that care, you know.

I wish I could help, somehow.

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

sweetthang2877 41F
534 posts
6/12/2006 8:19 pm

Because we care so much for you!!!

imLadyBambi 59M/51F

6/12/2006 10:27 pm


Hey, it's "Mr. Bambi", the husband of Lady Bambi and better known to you as AtomicKisss

It sounds as though you have thought about suicide recently. Regardless of whether I am right or not, it seems as though you have reached a dangerous point. Is there a community mental health center that you can call or even a crisis hotline available to you. As you know, the depression will only make you problems worse and appear bigger.

Take care and please keep in touch.

Mr. Bambi (aka AtomicKisss)

CaboWaboVHnut 57M
637 posts
6/13/2006 3:30 am

SAK !!! You know that depression is a vicious, evil demon !!! You must fight it off no matter what !!! Grab a BIG STICK and kick it's ass !!! I've fought the bastard for years, with meds, and most everything else I could find. I'm finally down to a low dose, hopefully going to be able to stop them completely !!!

Don't give up Brother !!! We're behind you !!! If AtomicKiss is right, man, please don't even consider suicide !!! If that happens, you lose, we lose, the world loses you & a chance to hear your music forever !!! Blog me back Bro !!! Let's talk !!! Cabo !!!!!!!!!!

sweetthang2877 41F
534 posts
6/13/2006 12:39 pm

Cabo!!! MY brother is correct luv...as is atomickiss. I am here for you as you have always known, and I always will be. Just remember that you are loved by many and we won't give up on you, so long as you don't give up on life!

Kisses and Hugs for eternity!!!!!


warmandsexy52 65M
13164 posts
6/19/2006 4:02 pm

Wishing you a lucky break.


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