Days Like This  

rm_sakrilej 42M
200 posts
8/20/2005 3:33 pm

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6/11/2006 3:58 am

Days Like This

are obviously always going to be part of this thing labelled 'life'. When the loneliness and emptiness consume one to saturation point. Bittersweet ironies, falling in love that will never be, hope drowned in circumstance, needs that are not met.

The self-important fool whinges 'why me?', as if no one else ever felt this before, yet realising the insignificance of one lone soul crying out to the infinite sea of souls 'help me', when they all have platefuls of their own.

And craving creature comfort, it's been years since I was touched. Nature laughs in my face at the intellectual decision to feel no more, I've let it rip me to pieces so many times. But to get laid is so trivial compared to what it is I am craving. Brittle and fragile, no one can keep up a jovial facade all the time.

Happy couples, know what you've got, take nothing for granted, lest you ever feel this way. I wish I knew where to look. What is the lesson to be learned from this drawn out trial? Is it the adamant refusal to be crushed by another wrong one, that keeps the right one out of reach, out of view, an impossibility?

I truly hate today and all the days like it. Lucky I've got plenty to keep me occupied. Tomorrow I may be jumping for joy. Roll on!


CaboWaboVHnut 57M
637 posts
8/21/2005 4:17 pm

YO ! Self Important Fool !!! Could U be a little harder on yourself ??? Seriously man, everyone {practically}, has felt, or is feeling like U do. The fear of being crushed by another "wrong one", may very well be keeping U from the right one. I think we've all, at one time or another, declared: "Be it known, henceforth, I refuse to feel anything, or any emotion, that could injure my heart or spirit !" That sounds great, and very brave on the surface. However, we humans have something internal that refuses to let us keep our resolve forever !!! It's called LOVE !!! It can break down unbelieveable barriers !!! It is a wonderful thing, but, it can be a painful monster also !!! The point is, to feel the incredibly wonderful parts, we also have to face the horrible parts as well !!! I have a great marriage & family. I'm in a dark place right now, struggling with depression. I have to remember to kick my ass daily to be thankful, & not take what I have for granted !!! It's so easy to see the bad, you have to search farther to see the good !!! Peace !!! Cabo !!!


CaboWaboVHnut 57M
637 posts
8/21/2005 4:25 pm

Hey ! I forget to tell you, I'd love to hear some of your music. The way you write,{ I should say compose } a post, the way it flows, is amazing. You are a true artist, no doubt !!! Peace !!! Cabo !!!


PrincessKarma 45F
6188 posts
8/21/2005 10:31 pm

*BIG HUG*

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma


oneuna 52F

8/22/2005 1:06 am

It very well could Sakrilej.. But I think that everyone has days like that... although it tends to strike creative people more. I feel that a reason for that is as a general rule, (at least in my experience), creative people tend to be more in touch with their feelings... otherwise how could they create?

Do you find that when you create your music that it is almost a part of you?

I find that when I create and sometimes it is very hard to part with my creations, cause in a way they expose so much of me and oftentimes are created out of a specific feeling... I often don't show alot of my art for that very reason. Sometimes creating is very cathartic. I am sure that you find that to be the case for yourself?

Cheers
Oneuna


pussnboots694 74M/79F

8/22/2005 5:57 am

As I reach through
and touch your face
Locked within my own shadows..
I understand
your pain..
There is a reason..
your angel
walks with you..


Fox4aKnight1 44F

8/22/2005 3:18 pm

hugs sak.......been reading you responses to PK and so on just thought I would pop over and read some of your stuff. So hugs......might be mood swing thing...dunno you would have to remember when ya first started drinking to see if the swings were there b4 the drinking. Anyhow huga and hope ya are having more good days than bad. (though it helps to have bad days so the good day are all that much better be sweet ......


pussnboots694 74M/79F

8/22/2005 5:45 pm

I close my eyes..
Hidden in the shadows
miles away..
Dear one..
I belong to no one..
I walk alone..
As the heavens envelope
My soul..
My sprit set free to fly..
I touch you
as no other
I make you smile..
I will be with you
always..
You are strong dear one..
Be happy you are you
and know I love you..
Just for being you


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