To the uninformed.  

rm_phoundrx7 40M
498 posts
7/25/2006 7:58 am

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8/15/2006 7:30 pm

To the uninformed.

For those who don't know, I am an enigma.

I can analyze anything and everything, and nail it down pretty well. Also, I pay attention, and listen & watch with great interest & intensity.

I like being around people, but my problem is I'm not very good at dealing with people on an individual basis. Group-wise, I command like few others. Individually, I tend to annoy and piss people off.

It comes from wanting everyone at my level of thought, at my level of dedication. Although I have toned down on some aspects, I am still a royal pain in the ass to anyone who stands in & around my path.

I could sit here, and tell you every single fault I have, because my analysis does not stop with the exterior, it includes the interior as well.

My mood swings are erratic, and combustible. I tend to do more listening that talking, and even have trouble getting words that I know need to be said out of my mouth.

I have missed so many opportunites with various people, especially females, because I either know what to do, but I find an excuse not to, or I am fearful of saying the wrong thing, so I say nothing at all.

Part of that hesitation comes from my willness to be truthful, even when I know I shouldn't.

Case in point: first girlfriend. Asked me if I thought she was fat. So I said yes (btw, she was). So I spent the entire night trying to heal her pride. After multiple sessions of sex, and a lot of amatuer psychology, I got her away from her self-pity.

I'm still learning how to lie, even if I don't want to. I've gotten the giving enough truth bit down, though I still do too much information at times.

My gut will not go away, though I should do more work than I do. My body feels 50, but I'm 29 (as of the day I'm writing this).

Seen too much in life, from all different perspectives, and know that things can, and will become better.

I know my destiny, even if I am afraid to fulfill it. Especially knowing what the future will bring, though I allow it to be cause for my own second guessing.

I am a decent lover. What gives me my reputation in bed is my ability to go all night, though I shoot fast. But after the third shot, I should be good to go. If you moan or get into it, it might take five.

Now, all of you are wondering why I am admitting all of this.

The reason: I know what I am capable of. And I have no fear in admitting my own faults, as well as my abilities. I do not fear the unknown, I just have a latent fear of the inevitable.

BTW, please read my previous blogs, and give your thoughts. Always welcome and appreciated.

Until later, enjoy people, and may your days be merry and bright.

lostmydrinkagain 45F
2272 posts
7/25/2006 11:17 am

Again, happy birthday. I'd rather have you be honest with me. Lies help no one. I enjoy listening to you talk, otherwise I wouldn't keep coming back. Enjoy your day!!!

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