Ode to women (the real deal)  

rm_phoundrx7 40M
498 posts
8/8/2006 11:51 am

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8/9/2006 10:12 pm

Ode to women (the real deal)


I want to say what I think about women, but I don't think about them as much as I should.

I consider their companionship, their warmth, their spirit.

I cherish their abilities, their emotions, and their whole.

Yet, at times, I see the other side of womanhood.

The duality. The side that makes me loath them, that makes me fear them.

These come from bad experiences. From wrongs done to me, and bad decisions made by me.

From my mother, who used me as a pawn in her war against my father; to my first true girlfriend, the one who so needed me so much she lied about having a miscarriage, just to get me to come back to her. To the looks I receive, from those who do not know me, to the distrust that has engulfed my life.

The barriers that I have built up because of these terrible things that I have felt, should not exist. I have know many females who were kind, considerate, treated me with respect & dignity, and added to my own strength, when I felt I could take no more.

Every night, I hug my pillow, wishing it was the one woman who could be with me, who could love me for who I am, imperfections and all.

Could help to heal the pain inflicted, and to bring out the very best in me.

Yet, despite it all, there is that wall of mistrust. Knowing their are plenty of succubuses, out their to use, abuse, and then throw the man to the side after all the life has been drained from him.

I know that you are not the one.

To every female (if you are still reading this, and not cursing my name in vain) reading this; to every woman on my network; to every woman that may never get a chance to see or understand the true nature of me.

I wish you all could know how much I care, how much I worship, and how much I respect you, even if you do not for me.

I love you all.

Good night.

PrincessKarma 44F
6188 posts
8/9/2006 2:04 pm

And a petting never hurts, does it...

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

rm_phoundrx7 40M
340 posts
8/9/2006 11:12 am

Thank you my dear.

Your words are understood, accepted, and cherished

PrincessKarma 44F
6188 posts
8/9/2006 9:04 am

*lays his head on her lap and strokes his hair* You'll find her, sweetie... I found my man, and on this site, no less. He was the last person I would have thought I would love this way, but life is full of surprises.

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

rm_phoundrx7 40M
340 posts
8/9/2006 12:30 am

I'm always honest, even to a fault.
As far as being hurt, everyone has. So the understanding is universal.

As is, it is highly appreciated.

dawndirtymind 43F
370 posts
8/8/2006 8:24 pm

At least you are honest in your thoughts.
Like you I have been hurt by the opposite sex so much that the walls are high and thick around my heart. Terrified and yet wanting to find someone to let in.
I wish for us both and everyone else that we find someone with the special key to allow access to that special place.

lostmydrinkagain 45F
2272 posts
8/8/2006 7:51 pm

That was great. I am sorry for the pain you have suffered, I truly believe that tomorrow holds great things for you. I know that I am very happy that our pathes have crossed and my life is richer for knowing you.

SuzieQ4U60 62F

8/8/2006 2:06 pm

I have been hurt by men, the same as you have been hurt by women. Its life, I guess, but doesn't make the pain any less.

I didn't have a dad that used me as a pawn, nor a mom for that matter. My dad is a good dad. My mom has passed away, but.........
I am not really sure she loved me. I do not remember, once, as a child her hugging me and telling me she loved me. Not something a person wants to feel...that they were not loved by their mother.

But I have been hurt by men. By more than 1 man too.

We just have to move on, honey, and live life as best we can.


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