Settle for less? Not me.  

rm_onetyger 46F
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7/13/2006 3:12 pm

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7/13/2006 4:56 pm

Settle for less? Not me.

Well, hello friends. It's been awhile since I did a blog entry, so I thought it was about time. I've had alot on my mind lately, but I haven't felt well enough to speak it as much as I would like. I've been sick for a week now with what could be gallstones. I'll find out in a few days for sure.

Anyway, this isn't about my health. I'm trying to make some decisions as to how to best handle my love sex life. We won't get into the 'love' part of things here this time. That's a whole other matter.

I've realized lately that I seem to be selling myself short by meeting random guys at my apartment or hotels, etc without actually going out with them on a date or two first. While I'm not necessarily looking for a love connection, I am looking for someone willing to be friends first. When I meet a man at the door, half-dressed, and head straight to the bedroom, I'm not sure that really constitutes a matter how much we've chatted online. In my opinion (and it's my life, so I'm entitled), whomever I do decide to have as a "friend with benefits" should enjoy spending as much time with me outside of the bedroom as they would only having sex. I'm actually a pretty cool person to hang out with anyway.

I've been stood up a few times again in the last couple of weeks. The thing about it is that I honestly was glad the guys didn't show up. I realized that these were men I really didn't want to be with anyway, but I wanted to please them just in case the urge hit me and I needed someone to call for a favor in return. You know what?!?! I have toys for that, so I've decided that I would much rather play with those than to fuck a guy that I don't even want to be with in the first place just for the heck of doing it.

Am I being harsh? No, I've just decided that I deserve better and I have to look out for my own best interests because if I don't, nobody else will. And whether or not anyone else likes and respects me, I certainly do and that's what matters most. After all, I have to spend the rest of my life with myself so I may as well enjoy it.

So, guys, if you want to get in my have to earn that right first. Consider it a privilege. It is well worth it.

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