Handling rejection  

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4/9/2005 7:45 am

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Handling rejection

Last night was a bad night. We went out in New Haven, just to explore since two of us hadn't been there before. I liked one of the places we ended up visitng, but nowhere did I talk to any girls; I'm all broken out right now from the stress I've been under at work, and I'm not exuding a particularly great amount of confidence. Naturally, at the end of the night, when the two girls we were with paired up with my two friends - leaving me as the fifth wheel - I was none too happy about it.

So I took a nice long walk around the area (at 2 o'clock in the morning), noticing the nice clear evening we were having last night, and just waited for my head to clear out, but all I could think of was how much it hurt to feel that kind of rejection. I know I shouldn't care - the 24yo from NY is coming up as I write this - and in all honesty I didn't think anything could have happened last night anyway, but it just gnaws at me.

I mean, she came down to hang out with us mostly because she and I were expected to hit it off. And we did; no problem there. But as the night went on, I saw her giving my friend John all the signs; the arm-touching, the Sure I'll Go Smoke With You Outside treatment, etc. I knew I was out long before he knew he was in, and I think that's what upset me. I had too much time to think about it.

I know, I have a visitor coming for the weekend anyway, what the f is my problem? I know it shouldn't be an issue; but for some reason it is. Maybe because it comes on the end of an awful week for me (not only did this happen, but work was hell all week long and I played awful in my hockey game Thursday night), maybe because with this sudden onset of acne (I look like a 15 year old) I can't look in the mirror, maybe because I just don't like the thought of being in second place (or third!). I feel defeated; and I hate that.

So that's my deal for this saturday morning. Now I'm going to try to cheer myself up.

Lapkin4u 43F

4/14/2005 9:23 am

I think we all have experienced rejection at that level at some point in our lives. Dont fret though think about all the successful times youve had as I'm sure they outway the bad.

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