I NEED to let the world know...  

rm_loneremily 34F
380 posts
8/1/2006 9:14 pm

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8/6/2006 7:19 pm

I NEED to let the world know...

I'm not as cool as some seem to think I am.

At least--I don't think I'm cool. I like myself... But I don't think I'm cool.

Of course... We all know that I've been managing to get some ass here and there... But I bet y'all didn't know that tripled my scorecard in the last few months.

From two to six. Not a huge jump. But not bad for a former goody-goody.

The problem? I'm finally going to have a say completely in what happens with my life. MY money will go where I SAY IT WILL! I don't have to discuss it with someone.

Any SMART decision I wish to make... I will.

I know what you're thinking... So--What's the problem?

Guys. It seems like every guy I hang out with really likes me. ESPECIALLY if I sleep with them.

This is not good. I don't think any other single mommy of three has this problem.

Even guys that HAVEN'T MET ME, YET have spoken about long-term relationships.

NO! NONONONONONO! Listen; fellahs... I love all of you. I love how you smell. I love to tease you and watch you squirm.

I love to tenderly touch you--then say something that you had NO IDEA I would ever say.

I love coming up to you with my small frame and wowing you with my STRENGTH. Those wide-eyes of surprise; priceless.

BUT--the LAST thing I need right now is to give myself to someone. All of me. That's what I do. Read my lovetype--it's TRUE. That's EXACTLY how I am. I don't like relationships to end. I allow myself to be a doormat to keep the relationship going.

WELL--not right now. NO! Unlike my ex--I keep doing things to change.

I overcame my fear of competition (for some things). I can kill spiders by myself (no more: "EEEW! EEEW! GET IT! GET IT!"), I meet new people--I used to be so afraid. I talk about my accomplishments. I even tell the truth when I know it might make me sound bad.

Now--I'm going to be successful by myself. I still want to be around guys. Of course, I want to experience them, still... But I can't be someone's girl right now.


rm_aranayd 47M
2014 posts
8/1/2006 10:38 pm

It sounds like you have yourself under control, but are having trouble getting that message across to the men around you. You also seem assertive enough that I doubt anyone who isn't intentionally ignoring you could miss your meaning when you're direct. If you are clear about your intentions and direct in upholding your ideals, then any misinterpretation is on their part alone.

For myself, I try to be as direct as possible (probably rudely so). I come right out and say: "Nothing long-term or deeply meaningful. Casual and/or friends only." It likely cuts down my chances, but I would rather have the honesty out there. I'm a good guy and anyone who takes the time can find that out.

As long as you're honest and direct, you can't be held responsible for other people's failure to understand.

Gossip_Anyone 42F

8/2/2006 1:26 am


Like I'll ever be cool!I'm a geek at heart!

toothysmile 51M
16517 posts
8/2/2006 5:07 am

good for you. kisses.

XJackinyourBoxX 43M

8/2/2006 12:36 pm

Apparently we have a lot in common..
Enjoy the freedom and experience life!


8/2/2006 2:28 pm

Darling M,
And when you are finally ready you are going to make someone a very lucky lad. Hope you are smiling and sitting pretty.
You are such a champ.

Choozmi 51M

8/4/2006 4:03 am

Some men assume women want long term relationships and so the men pretend to want them also in order to begin a sexual relationship. So some of your lovers and suitors may simply be telling you what they think you want to hear.

Some, of course, may really be falling for you. Please be gentle with them. Even though you are not at present looking for something permanent, you may change your mind later and one of these gents might turn out to be a perfect candidate.

Whenever I fall for someone, my desire is not to have her become dependent upon me but to grow alongside me into her best self. I want her to become a partner, not a doormat.

ArgosPlumyKooky 46F
3902 posts
8/4/2006 6:27 pm

right on!

rm_PurryKitty2 49M/51F
9753 posts
8/6/2006 9:06 am

At least you are honest.

Take your time sweetie.

Purry {=}


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