My past is haunting me...  

rm_lnrb2 46F
337 posts
5/28/2006 5:40 am

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5/29/2006 9:59 pm

My past is haunting me...

For the last weeks, my past has popped up in the strangest ways. A special smell that reminds me of my childhood (not in a pleasant way), something someones says, meet someone I havn愒 met in years etc.

The hardest thing to deal with is my dreams. Every night I dream of people from the past, places from the past or events from the past. And different combinations of past and future.

For example this last night. My dream was about a house where I used to live with my boyfriend at the age of 18... My ex wasn愒 in the dream, but his baby sister was (haven愒 seen her for 12 years.... ) Many people passed bye in the dream, my coffefriend for example. And a former workmate that I had sex with a couple of years later. A van filled to the max with my friends. Police and doors I couldn愒 close. Hidden things. Apples. (apples??? )

I am glad I know the reason to all these dreams, though. In 2 weeks there is a special date coming up, witch has to do with my big decision.
And this is my subconscious way to deal with it.

My soul is healing it self..

vrec_dawn 41M

5/28/2006 6:50 am

Your soul may be healing itself, but that almost never comes free. There's almost always a price, and that price is facing and letting go. No fun. Still, better to let go than to carry that burden forever, even if it means facing the ghosts of our past.

mollen6 35M

5/28/2006 11:17 am

It amazes me how detailed you describe your dreams, I hardly remember anything of my dreams and if I do remember a person from my dream, I have no idee what it all was about. A good thing is that I can't say I have nightmares either

rm_lnrb2 46F
123 posts
5/28/2006 12:02 pm

I had nightmares for many years as a child/teenager, and one of them over and over again. Sometime I find myself wondering about what that particular dream really meant.. It was about a car that either my father or my uncle owned, a red Van. Can´t remember who really owned it, but it was in my uncles garage. In the dream the car was chasing me all around our property. Wherever I hide, the car still found me. Now it is probably 15 years since I last dreamed it, but I still can feel the fear and tell the dream in detail. So much effect had it on my life for many years.

vrec_dawn 41M

5/29/2006 5:53 pm

That's the fun (though it's not always 'fun') thing about dreams and dream interpretation. Reoccuring nightmares being not exactly 'fun', but it's always interesting to see the way the mind works and relates. I hope it being 15 years since you've had that particular dream means fifteen years since you've managed to resolve the issue that sparked it.

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