Sleepless In Sacramento  

rm_legslave66 38M
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8/18/2006 5:47 pm

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8/18/2006 6:14 pm

Sleepless In Sacramento


Dear God, I dunno why I keep doin' this to myself. Why do I keep depriving myself of sleep? Why, oh why, do I consistently and stubbornly insist on going 2 bed late every single night? It is madness, I tell you!!

I'm not a teenager anymore. I can't take this kinda shit like I used to. Especially since I have to get up so damned early for work. And still, I continue, foolishly depriving my body of the slumber it so depserately needs. "What a wretched man I am!" That quote's somewhere in the Bible, don't ask me where.

I'm bringin' all this up because the headaches have started up again. Everytime I accumulate a large sleep deficit, I start getting this slight throbbing in my brain. Sometimes when it gets bad enough, like this fine morning, it manages to spread into one of my eyes. It's weird. And painful. And what gets me so pissed off is that I have completely earned it all.

It's my own stupid fault. I didn't have this problem when I was goin' to bed early last week. I was full of energy and refreshed and clear-minded. I was focused and so pumped-up. In comparison to this, it was like being on amphetamines. It was crazy. you would think that shit would motivate my stupid ass to continue to get an adequate amount of rest. But NOOOOOO.

I have to be a fool and go back to the self-destructive habits that have lead me to crash the way I have today. So now, here I am. Once again feeling the sluggish and listless. I swear, you'll find more life in a graveyard than in me right now.

God help me. . .

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