What's wrong with me?  

rm_kymlee3 44F
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8/9/2006 8:58 pm

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9/28/2006 6:40 am

What's wrong with me?

Hey everyone...I guess that I am feeling a little down tonight. Okay, so I am feeling a lot down tonight.

Things seemed to be going so well, and I guess that I got greedy. Me? Greedy? Yeah. I got greedy wanting to spend time with my honey, and I guess that I made him feel like I was wanting him to choose between me and his kids. That's not it at all, but I guess that it came across that way. I tried to call him, but I guess he doesn't want to talk to me. I feel that I put my heart out there, and I know that he cares about me. I know that things are tough for him right now, and I don't want to make them tougher. I'm thinking that maybe I pushed too hard too fast. I just want to be a part of his life in every way. He means so much to me, but I guess that I'm just too pushy. I just care about him so much, and I don't want to lose him, but I am afraid that I might. He makes me actually like myself, and he likes me for me, but I think that I am starting to not like myself so much. I know that I am feeling sorry for myself, but I feel like my whole world is crashing down around me...again.

I have been missing my dad terribly lately and I spent the afternoon with my mom. It is so hard sometimes. I try to be strong for my mom, but I find it so difficult sometimes, like today. She is missing my dad something terrible too, and she started crying and I didn't know what to say or do. I feel so helpless sometimes. My dad was the pillar, the strong one, and everyone says that I am like him, but I'm not sure that I can keep holding it together. I just don't know what to do anymore.

As if that isn't enough, I haven't gotten anywhere with getting my problems figured out with the IRS. Talking to them is like taking my head and running it into a brick wall! They said that they had assigned my case to someone, but I haven't heard anything from them. Then, when I called and talked to someone, they forwarded a request to the Taxpayer Advocates group. Well, I thought that I would hear something from them, but nope. I got in touch with someone and they told me that my case had been assigned to the advocacy group in Mephis, TN. Now, I ask you, why would they assign my case to someone in Mephis? I live in Illinois! There are two offices located in Illinois...one not too far from where I live. I was given the number to the Mephis office and evertime I try to call it, I get a recording that no-one is available. I was told that someone would be getting in touch with me on Thursday, so we will see what happens.

I am going to leave you for now. Take care of one another and have fun! I'm gonna try!

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