Here I am again  

rm_kymlee3 44F
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11/24/2005 11:21 pm

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Here I am again


Well, here I am again writing another blog. This is one of those times that I am going to probably ramble a bit. I really appreciate all the great comments that I have received about my blogs. I have been a very busy person lately and I also had a little bit of a problem with my computer. But, all better now. I hope that everyone had a good holiday. I am ready for the holidays to be over personally. I hate all the hype that goes with them. Anyway, I have unfortunately not been seeing too many people lately. I wish I could, but things just haven't been working out. I miss talking with a lot of the great friends that I met on here, but when you have technical difficulties, what can you do? But, now that I am back I hope to be meeting a few more people.
Now here's a little info for the friends that I have met...my ex is wanting to try counseling and try to get back together. I want to try, but I am a little hesitant also. I was finally getting on with my life or so I thought, but this puts a new hitch into things. I know, love is for saps, but I still love him. After all, nine years is a lot to just throw away. I didn't like myself for a long time and I have finally started. I just hope that I don't go back to where I was. I have had a few things change in the past several months and I am enjoying the changes. I just hope that I can keep some of them. On a funny note, one of the changes is that I have been losing weight. I don't know how, but I have lost almost two waist sizes. Now for all of you that like bigger women, which I am one, I am still a bigger girl and I haven't changed my outlook on life. I don't plan on ever being a stick, but I have added a few curves to myself that have been hidden. I know, I'm getting off the subject of my ex, but it gives me a headache if I think about it too much and my mom has really been pushing the issue of us getting back together. I can't seem to make her understand that I am not letting him move back into the house. I mean, after all, he left, not me. Not to mention that if he moves back in, we will fall back into the same old pattern and nothing will have been resolved. I am glad that he and I are talking, but I am so confused about it all right now. If anyone has any helpful input, I would love to hear it. I'm just at such a loss right now as to what to do about everything. I do know that I am still on a path to figuring things out, but I just hope that I can choose the correct path because I think that I have hit a fork in my path. Anyway, like I said at the beginning of this, I just had a few ramblings to put down and again I wanted to say thanks to everyone for all the support and input about my friend. It always seems that when it rains, it pours, but hopefully things are on the upside now. Let me know what you all think.

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