Emo Kid  

rm_jynxgurl 31F
175 posts
1/21/2006 7:26 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Emo Kid

I shift through life, not really there
Just floating around, nowhere to go
With my purple hair flowing loosly around my head.

I hang out around people, but don't interact with them
Reading is my life, my world
My purple hair a shield covering my face as I read.

I am always tired, but stay up late
Till my eyes sting, with lack of sleep
Then I tye up my purple hair before I sleep

I feel depressed, but act happy and hyper
I spend hours planning out my life, but do nothing to make it come about
Just sitting around twisting my purple hair.

I read all day, write all night
Don't do much work, just enough to keep me alive
Twirling my purple hair on my finger 24/7

I am could stand to lose a pound or two, but don't care enough to do so
I am hyper one minute, sluggish the next
My purple hair fading back to dirty blonde

I don't like things the way they are, how people look at me
This cannot be my life, I don't want this life
So I let my purple hair fade and readjust my personality

People come, people go
People all around, I remain alone
My purple hair gone I have no reason to stay this way

unfortunatly, one cannot change their personality as easy as changing thier hair colour
feeling lost and alone, me and my purple hair.


MyRealLoverOne 47M

1/21/2006 9:26 pm

jinx, I can so relate to where you are. Believe me..I have been there..done that. I wish I could reach out and give you a huge loving hug and tell you how special you are. You may feel so down and out..distant..depressed. You are on the verge of some important change in your life. The decision is always yours. I know I can not understand what all you are going through, so I will not give you a bunch of shitty advice. You are young and beautiful and most importantly..you have love to give that is so desparetely needed. Purple hair will come and go, but your heart is forever..guard it well..nuture it..love it..grow it...but most importantly...Give it away... I love you my dear one.

Love, Brian


gnr8nrg 47M

1/21/2006 9:40 pm

Hi Jynxgurl. Actually I changed my personality overnight. I was negative, angry, depressed, but then I had a life altering experience and I've never been the same. Don't get me wrong, there are many things I would like to change now, but I find myself in the same old same old. I talked to someone today, and she said something about if we don't challenge ourselves we don't grow. This rang true for me as of late, because I've been trying to be safe for quite some time now. So I haven't been feeling the growth that I had been for so long. There are certain things I could change, but I'm afraid of the results. Not just possible failure, but even success. Both bring change and possible discomfort, but also great pleasure. Sorry to rant here, but I had long purple hair for a few weeks too. Many years ago.


_Safira 54F
11260 posts
1/22/2006 11:13 am

Purple is my favorite colour, Jynxie! *gentle hugs*

Here ... hope it helps you:

4 AM

Talkative but not talking; competitive but not competing; unique but indifferent;
productive but not producing; strong but lacking;
looking but not seeing; an introverted extrovert; assertive but not asserting;
creative but not creating; an achiever not achieving.
thought-filled but speechless; not a veteran but battle-weary;
listening but not hearing; tired but not sleeping; an optimist turned pessimist;
in a stupor but not stupid; alone in a crowd; a person without personality;
hungry with no appetite;
day after eternal day; imprisoned with no crime; hopeless yet hopeful;
a heart incapable of emotion; alive but not living;
its 4 am . . . have you seen my clothes?
i'd like to go home.

You are NOT ALONE ... especially with me butting into your life.

Safira

This is my blog - Comes With Warning Labels. There are many like it, but this one is mine.

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aascrompn 43M
6444 posts
1/22/2006 12:53 pm

Jynx - I know that things get really tough. You are a GREAT person that should be hugged everyday. I think that if you found the type of group that you really want to interact with, you would feel your life come together. Planning your life is great, but understand things won't always go the way that you plan. Keep your chin up and get out of the house for a little while. *Hugs*


xxTONGUESKILLZxx 31M
21 posts
1/23/2006 9:12 pm

...so then I dyed my hair green...


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