Freedom is not a Many Splendored Thing  

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4/17/2005 1:45 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Freedom is not a Many Splendored Thing

Well, I set her free, fevrently hoping she would return, but i know that is in vain. The deal breaker was too much, and there were too many aspects to it for things to work. I hope she finds what she is looking for, I really do. Though right now that seems like just empty words.

There is that part of me that screams "No! I want her to find that happiness with me" even though I know I cant offer her what she needs. How can there not be that part when you care about someone and want to be with them. She is right though, if i cant give her what she needs, how can it work. Though my heart yells in rage at the seemingly unfairness of it, I understand her, and her dreams. So how can I stand in the way?

I am a believer that we meet people for a reason, that there is some fate involved, some meaning to these events. I am having a hard time finding it here.

No, that is a selfish thought. She has told me what kind of gift our meeting has been. So, maybe the fates felt she needed something and I was the one to provide, with possible heart ache as my reward. Its isnt really about me at all, it is about her finding her way, and what she needed. I guess I should feel honored that I could provide that spark of hope, and treasure the memory of our time together.

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